.Friday, October 31, 2008 ' 10:24 PM Y
I dont know why, but after listening to whatever you had said, my impression of you have just become worst. It's all so dumb. And you have changed. So much. I prefer the old you. I hate the way you deny things, trying to escape from it easily. I used to think that nothing could go wrong between us. But now, it has. Sheesh, why why? :/ No matter what happened between the two of you'll, i never distanced myself from you. I always talked to you normally, it was so natural. But now, i've to force myself to talk to you normally. I hate the way things are now. I've tried my best to talk to you as per normal, but i just find it so hard. Throughout this few months, i've learnt a lot about you. I would have preferred not knowing them though. You were someone whom i could make fun of, laugh with and at the same time, really talk to. But things have changed so much now. It's okay. everything happens for a reason(:
rosalind(: says:
i dunno you! sometimes i think you're more emo than me!
rosalind(: says:
okay not sometimes. most of the time!
.....
rosalind(: says:
and I AM NOT EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!
rosalind(: says:
i'm a very happy, optimistic, cheerful, friendly, lovely, sociable, sweet, patient, wonderful, adorable and bubbly kid
ROSALINDANGSWEEWEN, i'm sure you do know that there's a limit to lying right. Hahaha!
Hey LUNATIC, cheer up lah :D
like i said, everything happens for a reason.
.Wednesday, October 29, 2008 ' 8:00 PM Y
BUDDY WUDDY :D
and finally, we managed to get rugai's face in. Haha!
THE SQUAD. 231008. Unforgetable <3
IZNI. DAYNA. ME (:
IZNI, you are soooo scandalous. Hahah still dare to say shiok what. Gosh, you damn thick skinned. And shit, your letter. Soon ah soon. Oh, your random but stupid msg made me smile(:
haha, thanks(:
DAYNA, i saw you dancing yest. Hahah, you looked so cute! Izni, dont jealous ah.
SYIFA! EX-csp buddy(: I rmb you telling me not to quit csp till sec 4 in the first letter you gave me. And now, who's the one ah?! Hahah, tsk tsk. I'll srsly miss whacking your butt lah ): I still have all the letters you gave me last year. Always reminding me never to quit seeasspee. Haizz you. Must come back visit us next year okay? then can attend csp lesson with ayushi also. Fun what, haha! :D
(i look spastic in the pic D: )
AYUSHI AURORA! She's going ipeee next year ): I'll miss hearing your voice during csp luh. Haha, and you always stealing food from me. MUST come back for csp lesson next year! hahah(:
2C'08(: failed attempt. Haha, look at syu's hair. 
MM-KAY(: EX-table partner. I'm gonna miss all the crap stuff we used to do last year. Must not forget okay? I still have all your nonsense letters. Our short, but nice walks to the toilet, all the times you used to influence me to sing stupid songs in class, sharing with each other our 'interesting stories', all your random notes in my books; i'll miss. Alot. I rmb that time you called me to ask me some reallyyy stupid question. But it still made me happy! Haha. You better not ignore me when you see me next year ah! sheesh, i miss sitting beside you<3> 
DELTA, ilike(:
.Friday, October 24, 2008 ' 10:23 PM Y
omgosh, you made me so happyyy(:
you made me feel good, after so long.
with just afew lines. heh
but i still miss smth, alot ):
.Saturday, October 18, 2008 ' 10:49 PM Y
Met up with delta at ppmacs today. It felt really good(:
but not for you'll i guess? ):
We managed to complete whatever we wanted to. So yaye! We talked quite alot and bonded well. Hoho :D
But shucks, i just saw smth which i wish i didn't. I don't quite get what you mean, but damn.
Since i saw it, i'll just apologise on behalf of _____.
I'm sorry, we never meant to disappoint you'll at all. We have tried our best and we will continue to.
But until now, THANK YOU for everything that you'll have done for us :D
I must say it's cause of you'll also that we love _____.
Sheesh, why are you causing so many problems? Can you understand that all we want to do is to help you, but you're not co-operating. You just go on and on without listening to what others have to say. You want things to be the way you want it to be. Then, nothing's going to happen. Everything's going to remain the same. But we don't want it to be like this. We can't go on like this. You've got to give in a little and listen to what others have to say and try to change yourself. It'll be best for all of us and for YOU especially. And we do care, we really do <3
Went shopping with my family today. We met mrs franklinn and naturally, my mum talked to her for quite some time. They spoke as though they knew each other for 10 yrs. Heh, i wish i didn't hear what they talked about :/ Hmmm, i thought about many things, yet again. I realised i think alot whenever i go out at night. haha, so weird.
I was looking through my msgs again and i saw the one you sent me on 5oct.
pleasetellmeyou'vedeletedit.
ithitmesohard,onceagain.
butidontknowhowibringupthattopicsoeasilywhenitalktoyou:/
DELTAAAA :D
(w/o instructor grace, ann, isabel, jo-ann and nanthini)
NP AND RCY (: .Wednesday, October 15, 2008 ' 10:26 PM Y
i had so many things to say but i'm just too sleepyyy ):
My heart skipped a beat when i saw you today.
But immediately i thought, why am i feeling this way?anditneverseemstofadeoff
On the way back, i looked at the moon. yes, moon.
Somehow it made me think alot and realise stuf in that short period of time.
Heh, it's amazing how nature makes me think so much.
sheesh, debbie and i are fighting to be pei wen's second.
And i won yo.
Yaye, i love delta :D
jiayou deltaaaa!
.Monday, October 13, 2008 ' 8:48 PM Y
THANK YOU TO ALL WHO WISHED ME TODAY(:
although it was a day late, it still meant alot(x
oh yaye, i received three letters today! omg dhivya, your letter just helped to make me want to ego more. Haha! Somehow, receiving letters makes me feel good yo :D i hesitated so much to open charmain'es one cause i didn't know whether there was anything written on it whether it was just a heart. Haha. THANK YOU(:
2C missed the girl to girl talk and the chinese opera cause of the IT thing ): anw, took 853 to amk with disciple today. We talked for about 10mins and i spent the remaining time stoning with my darling(: Hmmm, what's the point eh? You're doing it just for the sake of ... You're simply cheating yourself. Oh well, it's so disturbing. Bahhh.
I heard smth about you today. Gosh, i'm so disgusted. Why girl, why? :/
I wish i didn't give it to you today. I hope it flew away in the wind. Or at least, i hope you lost it on your way home. Please?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEYLING AND XIN YUN :D
peyling, cheer up lehhh(: don't sadsad! I just felt like appearing offline today. heh, tell me about it tmr kay? sorry :/
Ihateitwheneveriseestuffwhichremindabouthowthingsusedtobe.Thefeelingjustsucks :/
.Sunday, October 12, 2008 ' 10:20 PM Y
oh yaye, it's going to be over in less than 2hrs(: somehow, i knew today would not be a good day.
And it happened, just as i predicted. I wish today never came. I don't know why, but i was in a bad mood the entire day. And some people just had to make it worse. Thanks man. I can't wait to go to school tmr. I hope it'll be better.
I think i spent about half the day thinking so much about anything and everything. And i still haven't quite got a proper answer to one of my questions. What's the point in living? Blahhh ):
I hate it so much when i have to force myself to smile and laugh and be normal when i just don't feel like.
On a happier note, i saw this in pokepoke's phone yest.
I LOVE POKEPOKE BUDDIES! I LOVE POKEPOKE!
hahah, i was so touched. Haha, love you too buddyyy<3
except that your pokes can be rather irritating at times. heh.
Thank you very much to all those who wished me today. I really appreciate it alot(:
SOMEONE wanted me to mention his/her name here, but i decided not to(: don't go and cry to yourself okay? Haha!
shucks, please don't tell me there's smth wrong again ):
you; please cheer up my dear(: i know it's smth difficult to accept, but you must not just lose confidence and give up so easily. Just wait and see how it goes yeah? In the meantime, pray hard okay.
and suddenly, i remembered how my birthday was spent last year. Ahhh memories memories :D i miss. imissseeingyouaroundschool,incedaruniform.Andicangoonandon,butibetternot.
okay i shall spend the next 45mins praying for tmr to be a good day(x HAHA!
.Saturday, October 11, 2008 ' 11:33 PM Y
Open house today was okay. Omg, it has been damn long since i did drills with squadmates, so yaye(: I got reminded of last year's open house so many times today. I rmb taking my footdrill bronze accred during open house last year. I remembered so many other wonderful moments too, but i shall not mention it here. Heh.
After open house, i walked around with peyling. I think we talked so much; we walked around the school like 10 times. Haha. I asked her about primary schoo, teachers and that's when i realised i've already forgotten so many of them :/ She's nice to talk to. Thank you peyling(: And you've finally unlocked your blog! Hahah!
Disciple! Thanks alot for the present and letter(: Omg i love the letter. I'm so touched. I think i've read it about 5 times already. Haha! And i still don't quite know what that pig is supposed to be. But nvm, i shall find out soon. Haha. Oh and i noticed smth else today. But this time, i'm really not going to tell you till...you stop calling me a pig! HAHA, and i bet that's never going to happen. So, too bad. Sheesh, i feel so mean): But anw, i love you too(: heh.
Izni, you very big is it? Hahah, but i think you're still taller than me:/ Nvm nvm, i'll grow okay! Haha, and i saw you today. So noisy! tsktsk. And no, i don't know everyone's blog lah. Anw, you should feel honoured that I know YOUR blog. HAHA!
Smth funny happened in school recently. On wed,
pei wen: eh saran, i'm feeling so depressed
me: huh why?
pei wen: shucks, i think i'm turning into a les
HAHAH, shit i found it so funny!
and yest after pe, she suddenly came up to me and held my hand
pei wen: saran, will you be my girlfriend?
me: HUH?! haha, okay lor.
and after assembly, she held my hand again.
pei wen: so will you still be my girlfriend?
me: yes, sure sure.
rosalind: eh! but she's taken already what.
pei wen: no la it's okay, she'll break up and be mine.
HAHAHAHA wth!
Thank you very much to all those who have wished me(:
achu, i bet you thought you were the first right? it's okay la, third not so bad. Haha!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOORUL :D
i know it is wrong, but i'm still doing it. great.
shucks.and of all days, you chose to piss me off today. thanks man.
damn, i feel it.
.Friday, October 10, 2008 ' 11:32 PM Y
rosalind(: says:
you've noticed what?
rosalind(: says:
you've noticed what???
saranya says:
hahahah DUNNO :/
rosalind(: says:
EHHHHHHHH TELL MEEEEEEEEEE):
rosalind(: says:
EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHIFUUUUUUUUUUUUU):
saranya says:
hahahah EHHHH DISCIPLEEEEEEE(:
rosalind(: says:
WHAT DID YOU NOTICE?
rosalind(: says:
EHHHHHHHHHHHH TELL ME ):
rosalind(: says:
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE):
saranya says:
HAHAHAH, wait must think of a condition first
saranya says:
hehheh
rosalind(: says:
MY HEART BREAK ALRDY):
rosalind(: says:
haha okay
rosalind(: says:
FASTER THINK!
saranya says:
hmmm, think and tell you tmr.
rosalind(: says:
EHHHHHHHHHHHH):
rosalind(: says:
CANNOT LAH!
rosalind(: says:
YOU WANT ME TO FAINT OF FATIGUE TMR DUE TO LACK OF SLEEP?
saranya says:
HAHAHAH! i bet you'll really slap me across the road once you find out what it is
rosalind(: says:
PLEASE? i wont):
rosalind(: says:
honestly!
saranya says:
haha, tmr
saranya says:
set. promise. BYE(:
rosalind(: says:
NOOOOO
rosalind(: says:
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE):
rosalind(: says:
NOOOO
rosalind(: says:
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE):
rosalind(: says:
PRETTY PRETTY PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE WITH A CHERRY AND BOOTS ON TOP ):
rosalind(: says:
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?
saranya says:
omg you're so irritating! (imitates rugai)
rosalind(: says:
please):
rosalind(: says:
my heart break alrdy):
rosalind(: says:
tell meeeeeeeeeeeeee
rosalind(: says:
i promise i won't slap youuuuuuuuuuuu):
saranya says:
HAHAH tmr lah
rosalind(: says:
no cannot): i tonight cant sleep lah!
saranya says:
im going to run away now. BYEBYE! (:
rosalind(: says:
NOOOOO
rosalind(: says:
): MY HEARTTTTTTT
rosalind(: says:
if you run tmr i'll stand behind you and kick you with every sediya and senang diri!
rosalind(: says:
HINT?
rosalind(: says:
SMALL HINT?
rosalind(: says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
rosalind(: says:
HINTHINTHINTHINTHINT):
saranya says:
HAHAH!
saranya says:
it's about you!
rosalind(: says:
OBVIOUSLY!!!!!
rosalind(: says:
omg i'm so gonna slap you ): you so mean to meee
saranya says:
hahah, just playing only
saranya says:
i very bored):
rosalind(: says:
tell me? ):
(and i finally told her)
rosalind(: says:
i promised not to slap you
rosalind(: says:
but
saranya says:
but...?
rosalind(: says:
I WANT TO SLAP YOU!!!!!!!!!! ACROSS THE ROAD!!!
rosalind(: says:
okay i will keep my promise and not slap you anyway
rosalind(: says:
HAHA.
. ' 10:12 PM Y
I realised, what disciple said is rather true.
I don't know why, but i'm also rather affected by other people's probelms.
Even _ _ _ _ _ _ _ 's one.
Heh i find it so weird.
disciple; i'm proud of you yo! i've noticed smth but i shall not tell you what it is. HAHA!
and you; CHEER UP OKAY? :D
whythesefunnyfeelings? :/
damn,imissyou.
. ' 12:34 AM Y
i hate it whenever i feel so sad/confused/useless.
i hate all these mixed feelings.
i'm sorry i wasn't much of a help :/
.Wednesday, October 8, 2008 ' 11:19 PM Y
BAHHHHH TMR
D:
give me strength to carry on;
.Monday, October 6, 2008 ' 11:00 PM Y
and finally, IT'S OVERRRR :D
CSP was hmm..okay i guess. Not very bad. All of us were smiling at each other when we looked at the compo. Hahah it was damn funny. It was that kind of 'gone lah' smile. I really couldn't stop smiling to myself until even ms wee gave me some weird look. Luckily, it was managable. Then paper 2 was the horror! I had no idea what the comprehension was talking about. I couldn't geth the link between the sentences at all. Bahh): Oral! Haha, chinese oral is always so fun. She asked what my hobby was and at that point of time the only thing that came to my mind was batik painting cause i rmb reading it earlier. I laughed so much before i could even tell her batik painting. Gosh, funny funny. Waited for more than an hour for the rest to complete their oral then we had listening compe and IT WAS OVER(:
After the paper, had lunch with aliah, amreetaa, azwyn, muslihah and zunairah at plaza sing. Dhivya and amirah were antisocial-ising(HAHA!) on their own and they went home): Omg it was damn funny. They learnt a new word today and zunairah kept on coming up with her own version. 'MANGADA' and 'MANGEETAA'. Hahahah wth. After aliah and zunairah left, the four of us went to take pics(: Gosh, it was so hilarious!
rosalind. says:
eh i must tell her the shocking news..
, says:
what what?
rosalind. says:
it's too terrible to be said ):
rosalind. says:
my heart will break all over again
, says:
what thing?!
rosalind. says:
you see... there has been a earthquake over at kallang bahru and we won't have to go to school for the next two years):
saranya says:
HAHAHAHAHAH OMG!
and that's why i like random convos with squadmates(:
i wanted to say smth, but i'll keep it for another day.
p.s. don't bother highlighting cause there's nothing. HAHA!
.Sunday, October 5, 2008 ' 11:44 PM Y
okay, i've given up on chinese.
can you imagine handing up an empty compo paper? HAHA!
The only part which i HOPE i can score in is oral.
Bahhh, it's just too much to remember.
Just go in and give it your best shot. Okay yes(:
I hope i rmb whatever i've studied.
JIAYOU FOR CSPEEE EVERYONE(:
it's going to be over in a few hours. Yaye!
Oh, my first love of my life kissed me yest :D
. ' 3:12 PM Y
LOSER AMREETAA'S AT MY HOUSE NOW:D
(she put the smiley face there. yuckk. Haha!)
Met her at bishan at 9.30 and we went to tp macs. And that guy working there chased us away after 30mins ): thanks luh. We really had no idea where to go so we came to bishan again. Decided to study at the cc room but it was full also. So the next choice was my home(:
My mum sent me a msg saying she's at ______ .
And amreetaa said this, " Huh what's she doing there? Is your mum an anjec?"
HAHAHAH WTH!
and she was being such an irritant cause she didn't want to let me study.
wo he wo de peng you qu ta de jia du hua wen(:
-amreetaa.
now you can see how good her chinese is!
I met disciple at amk yest to collect her chinese disctionary. And she followed me to popular to get smth too. THANK YOU DISCIPLE(: for the help in seeasspee too. Your tutees are doing 'well' now! Haha, slacking away.
.
maybe, things would be better if we remain this way.
but it's so tough. Srsly.
bahh, why why? :/
stop being such a weakling saranya.
i wish i was able to tell you yes earlier.
.Saturday, October 4, 2008 ' 1:00 AM Y
rosalind. says:
wow, i've got "a lot" of things to do tmr man. yayy
rosalind. says:
1. stone
2. stone
3. stone
4. stone
5. stone
rosalind. says:
a lot right?
HAHAH! actually, i don't really want exams to end :/
.Friday, October 3, 2008 ' 10:15 PM Y
MATHS IS OVER OVER OVERRRR :D
Oh, shut up. You still have chinese, saranya.
Maths was okay(: Not as tough as everyone expected it to be. Felt so good after paper 1 but i was damn scared paper 2 would be tough. Luckily, it wasn't that bad though. Oh while discussing afew questions with squadmates after the paper, rugaiyah got so excited when we were talking about the simultaneous equation. In the end, her answer was wrong! HAHAH DAMN FUNNY! Her expression especially.
Yest, rugai msged me saying she's excited for maths to be over so she can get her GAMEBOY back. Hahaha wth! And today, theresa sent me a jiayou msg, with unnecessary additional info about her wanting to pee! Retards man retards. I think it's just a 2O thing. Like kimberly and sharianty...HAHA! Oh, sharianty thinks i've got smth for crystal. Hahha wth. Cause when i met them at kfc recently, crystal was wearing fbt and hse tee and her shirt was covering her fbt. So i looked at her and said "Crystal, you look half naked." And it seems i was biting my lips too. So sharianty and kimberly assume that i'm interested in crystal.
Disciple and i met the 2h clique at the foyer. And all of them surrounded me cause that LEENA LEE SHAO QI wanted to whack my butt. Aiyerr leena, secret desires! Hahah. Aye, i know it was cassandra who called me okay. And i know you'll went to ECP not malaysia. HAHA wth.
Studied chinese at ppmacs with amreetaa and disciple. I think if amreetaa wasn't there, disciple and i would have ended up walking around pp for 2 hrs again. Hahah. So it's good that she came(: disciple gave us spelling and amreetaa and i got so excited. I felt so primary school-ish. Haha. Then rachel c came after some time. And she eats as unglam-ly as amreetaa, maybe just a little more neat. I realised rachel sounds as though she's hyperventilating when she gets excited and talks fast. So funny! And i've come to the conclusion that amreetaa and rosalind would get along well as amreetaa talks to herslf and rosalind talks to walls, glass and air. HAHA INSANITY. THANK YOU FOR TEACHING US, DISCIPLE :D
Charmaine and achu, you'll better keep quiet okay. Please, i have better taste. And rosalind also agrees that she has better taste. Haha thanks. If not, i'm also going to slap you'll. ACROSS THE ROAD.(:
Lunatic, your long awaited math is over! Haha. But there's still SEE ASS PEE(disciple came up with this). ONE more only. Can luh huh(:
I'm proud to say that amreetaa and i have completed 2 chpt and there's still 14 more to go. In 2 days. Beautiful!
But azwyn and zunairah are the best. They haven't even started! Haha.
i still find it so hard to get it out.
so i guess i'm just trying to avoid making it worse?
i hope.
it feels so uncomfortable.
i'm sorry.
.Thursday, October 2, 2008 ' 10:55 AM Y
amreetaa's making me wait. and wait. and WAIT.
D:
there goes my breakfast.
.Wednesday, October 1, 2008 ' 10:51 PM Y
saranya. funny feelings says:
OMG CAN YOU CHANGE YOUR FONT COLOUR FIRST?!
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
you change yours lah
(we had the same font colour btw)
saranya. funny feelings says:
okay we play scissors paper stone, loser change.
saranya. funny feelings says:
okay set!
saranya. funny feelings says:
we say 1 2 3, then enter together!
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
okay
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
1
saranya. funny feelings says:
2
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
3
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
PAPER
saranya. funny feelings says:
paper
saranya. funny feelings says:
STUPID!
saranya. funny feelings says:
hahah
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
HAHHHH
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
AGAIN
saranya. funny feelings says:
kk 1
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
2
saranya. funny feelings says:
3
saranya. funny feelings says:
paper!
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
PAPER
saranya. funny feelings says:
HAHAHAHHA!OMG
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
AHHHHHHHHH
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
whats wrong with you?
saranya. funny feelings says:
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
HAHAHHA
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
okay
saranya. funny feelings says:
1
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
one last time
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
2
saranya. funny feelings says:
3
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
STONE
saranya. funny feelings says:
PAPER!
amreetaa. the words dont fit; says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
saranya. funny feelings says:
YAY YAY YAY(:
rosalind. - why? says:
why are there so many problems in sectwo?!?! HAHA.
saranya. funny feelings says:
it's the growing age..
rosalind. - why? says:
..where people get a lot of problems. i thought it's pimples, not problems?
saranya. funny feelings says:
HAHAHAH WTH!
and it's random convos like these which make me smile(:
. ' 1:29 PM Y
when you sit down and look back;
mrs foong gave us some tidbits and ms thang gave us lollipops yest(:
I got reminded so much of primary school, when we used to be so excited.
Trying to guess the presents each one of the teachers would give us. Haha!
And ohmygosh, im p4! I rmb going to help my tamil teacher during recess and she wanted to play with me! So i called afew more of my classmates and we started playing some ball thing! Hahah gosh, those were the times(:
Ohwell, i don't quite miss it actually.
Today, i sat down and thought. I thought so much. But it still dosen't seem to get into my head :/
But anw, i realised many things.
1. I realised that i still think about you at least once a week, or whenever i see you. I wonder how things are going on with you. No matter how much i detest seeing you, i know there's still part of me which misses your presence. But i don't want to feel this way. How?
2. I realised that i'm disappointed cause no one understands.
3. I realised i'm confused cause i don't know what to do.
4. I realised i'm sad cause i never thought you'd be so affected. And stop jumping to conclusions will you? Anw, i'm just going to wait for the right time. Till then, i hope you'll be okay my dear(:
I just want to let you know that you're still very important to me. So..yeah.
5. I realised no matter how hard i try, i still feel the same way. It's a feeling deep inside. It's not some paper which can just be torn and thrown away. Okay crap, but i'm still trying.
Someone else dosen't feel too good too. So, please cheer up(:
It's nice to know that there are people out there who randomly check on how i am :D
thanks diviya(:
I'm desperately in need of motivation. Tskk.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
(to someone, i'm glad you finally know it's on 1 oct. haha!)
and, HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY KIDDOS(:
SARANYA