Hold on to the truth in your heart.

.Sunday, March 8, 2009 ' 11:35 PM Y

Yest was evac accred for 5 of my squadmates. I think going to school with the angelic one and lover was a really bad idea cause it wasn't very productive. Firstly, there was no food in school and yujie and i were damn hungry. Secondly, i had to keep running away from the two of them cause xin yi didnt have a casualty. Omgosh, being rosalind's casualty was so scary! Haha, and she did something really really spastic. It was like the other time when the told the school staff "yes ma'am" Haha, omg! Anw, went to pp to carry on anddd, there was no powerpoint in macs when i thought there were. I felt so cheated. Anw, it is over. Feels relieved(: thank you everyone!

It's been quite some time since i talked to you properly. I hate being influenced but i know i am. Saranya, you've got a heart and mind of your own. Yes. Don't know if i am ___ now, but it seems like. Well, have fun(: I ain't gonna stop you and question you. Somehow, i havent been able to stand your temper recently. Gahhhh, i cant stand tempers. I don't want to feel this way anymore, please. I miss the old you, badly.

I dont feel like going to school tmr. Hur. I want dhivya to come over and i want to tell you everything that's been going on. And take pics and laugh, and feel good(: but i cant, obviously. And we cant do that during march holidays too, cause of band! Tsk. But it's okay, we've still got friday, tgt with the two bimbos! Yaye. I realised everything we talk about in school nowdays is what we have to do each day, and that's all. This sucks.

I feel bad for what i've said. So, i'm really sorry. But it was the situation. I sense the difference in your behaviour, which i dont want. I've never been too close to you, but i know there was a part of me which always thought about you. Do not think that i dont care about you any longer, cause i do.

I really dont know what keeps me going nowdays.
Actually, i doubt there's anything.
I hate it; living life for the sake of it.
I miss the times i used to look forward to see you, i used to look forward to trgs, i used to look forward to feeling happy.

Rosalind's personal msg on msn was, go mad alrd. mad mad mad mad. MAD!

saranya; says:
well, i think you shd add the i in front!
rosalind(: says:
no i shld put SARANYA GO MAD ALRD! actually no lah. you still look rather sane
saranya; says:
yay, haha(: i always do
rosalind(: says:
I COULD PUT dhivya go mad alrd
rosalind(: says:
but she is always mad
rosalind(: says:
so no difference!!!

My sister said i should stop listening to so many emo songs. Actually, i think so too but it's so tough. And my sis likes clubbing songs which i hateeee. Spending sometime on my own every night makes me feel funny but i think it's necessary. My sister wants to go out with me during my holidays. Haha, i feel honoured!

There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but dont be deaf and hear it from the person who says it with his heart.

But in my heart i always knew, nothing can change
However much i keep walking; away from you