Hold on to the truth in your heart.

.Saturday, January 31, 2009 ' 10:45 PM Y

Trg today was good but rather tiring. Went to ppmacs with disciple to eat after that. We saw someone there. Haha, and we realised smth rather ironic and funny! Haha anw, came home, did some work and slept(: Then went to circuit road for dinner. I don't think i'll ever get sick of the food there.

I confessed smth to yujie today. And she did too[: Haha! It's just that we prefer having each other as our table partner. Hahah! Oh, and i miss debbie. Alotalot): ( i hope debbie dosent see this though, hahah ) Although she looked like someone whom i couldn't really talk to in the beginning, i realised i felt comfortable telling her stuff and i think she knew almost everything that went on in my life last year. I could tell her anything and everything i wanted to, cause i knew i could trust her. And i miss the times she would surprise me with sweets! Haha(:

Oh, and muslihah came back yest[: I got so excited when i saw her from my class. Haha! Rushed down with sharizah and talked to her. And she even joined us for csp! Csp was so fun and hilarious. We laughed so much, till muslihah fell and ended up sitting on the ground. Talked to her about tkgs and stuff for quite some time. I seriously miss having her around in csp lessons ):

Aye muslihah, must come back often and join csp leson kay?(:

I still can't believe it. I'm kinda disgusted with your behaviour. In the beginning whenever you told me that you knew you were not being a good ___, i didn't really mind. But now i realise that it is too much. Seriously, what is going on in your mind?! Hmmm well, it's not even my business anyway.

Read the msges in my inbox earlier. You said nothing's changed and nothing's going to change. Hmmmm, actually feels like it already had changed :/ It's damn sad.

13 more days. Don't know if i should cry or smile. Heh. JIAYOU EVERYONE(:

Overyouyetagain.

Constance, Dhivya, me and Pei Xuan the BIMBO(:

Amirah, Muslihah, Dhivya and me!

.Tuesday, January 27, 2009 ' 9:45 PM Y

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHU JIA, SYU, HANAN AND NATASHA! :D

i dont feel like going back to school tmr ):
for 1 reason i guess.
It was a mad rush earlier :/
But thanks to my kuku disciple, it was done(: And you! Dont need to feel bad la kay.

Many things have been going on the past week but everytime i wanted to blog, the mood just faded away eventually. So yeah.

anw, today was (:(:(:
see, smiley faces! Haha.

.Monday, January 19, 2009 ' 9:37 PM Y

Lessons today were alright. But i almost fell asleep during english :/ Found out that my tp's actually from china! Haha, so cool. And i couldn't even tell. Random, disciple's secretly damn happy about smth someone commented about her and her ex tp. Haha, funny. Anw, trg today was goood(: So good! I was so excited when i saw dhivya after band today (i have no idea why actually. HAHA!) But she just puhed me away when i went to talk to her and she refuses to tell me what happened ): thanks okay, i was so sad.

To you; thank you very much for all your time today(: It might not be obvious, but we really appreciate it alot. Seriously.

But im still so scared of the outcome :/ grahhh. Oh well, it's the only solution left. I felt rather good after saying whatever i said today. Esp after keeping it inside me for so long. And the best part is; i feel so secure(: heh. It hurts, to see how things are now. But i'm glad i'm able to not let it affect me. Hoho! I still rmb the time you said nth could go wrong between you and me. But now, it has :/ Wo bu xi huan!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR HUANG YUSHU! :D
i miss the times we spent together at coals ):
but it's okay, i'm so glad we're classmates now(x

HAHAH!

.Sunday, January 18, 2009 ' 10:09 PM Y

Today was just so hilarious! I could find smth funny in everything i saw or did. Hahah, it's been quite some time since i laughed so much. Heh. Met disciple at bishan library at 10 and yaye, we got a nice table!Studied for about an hour, then we met my sis and mum and went to amk for my dental appt. And there, the first interesting thing happened. We saw a fish which looked exactly like nemo. And that's when i realised that there was such a fish. It looked to pretty and cute! Haha anw, i dont like my dentist. He has so few colours ): Hurhur. So i ended up putting red again. And rosalind said a look like a vampire. Alright thanks. HAHA!

Then we went to eat at amk macs, the place with great milo memories. hahah! And we left for bishan again. I wanted to go to popular and get the class deco stuff and that's when the second interesting thing happened. We saw someone. Haha, i dunno why, but we were damn shocked. Gosh, our reaction was so funny! And we just had to see smth else at that time which made things worse. Fast forward...yeah and so we ended up back at bishan library, still feeling distracted. Ahhhh, i'm too lazy to carry on. Hahah!

Yeah so anw, i felt rather accomplished today. Yaye(: Oh and did i mention that i love maths now cause my my new calculator? HAHA, so cool right.

Anw, i love today manymany! Thank you so much, SPASTIC disciple(: Thanks for your time yo! Be glad kay, you made my day :D HAHA!

.Saturday, January 17, 2009 ' 11:25 PM Y

why's everything changing? :/
even you, and you.

ohwell,
everything happens for a reason yo.(:

.Wednesday, January 14, 2009 ' 9:11 PM Y

tireddddd ):

i really want to lock my blog.
feels so insecure.

.Tuesday, January 13, 2009 ' 10:37 PM Y

on a happier note;

THANK YOU DISCIPLE FOR THAT VERY SWEET MSG[:
It made me smile for so long yknow. Heh.
But somehow, i get a feeling that it's not too ture. Oh well :/
Whatever's going on now, i'm not too sure of it. But i really hope you'll be fine by tmr :D
please?
Disciple, shifu loves you alright(:

And goh EHH-CEE-TEE!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! [:
Thank you very much for being such a great 'night mate' during RCYC. I will never forget those times. However ehh-cee-tee you might be (hehheh), i know you really care for people. I will never forget the time i tried talking to you in last year and you just turned your back on me. Hahah! Anw, don't be so emo alr kay! Happy 15th yo.

Andand! I saw someone today. After a reallyyyy long time. Yay[:

I think it has been almost a month plus since i've been disturbed by smth so badly. But really, the only thing that keeps me going during lessons these days are,trgs.Ahhhhh, why why :/

Why cry? Be happy(x
not that easy eh

. ' 8:54 PM Y

D:D:D:

feeling so sad/confused/weird.
i hope tmr turns out to be better.
i have confidence it will(:

read through some of the saved msn convos earlier.
oh well :/
changes.changes.changes.

it hurts really bad; once again

.Sunday, January 11, 2009 ' 1:10 PM Y

AHHHHH, SS IS A KILLER ):
hello, the question dosen't even make sense!
oh gosh, and there's dance later :/
alright, i shall go chiong ss first.
but my hotmail is not working, then how to submit?!

oh sheesh;

. ' 11:36 AM Y

you'resucharidiculuousthing.

.Friday, January 9, 2009 ' 10:57 PM Y

Lessons today were rather slack. We only had maths, english and double bio. Shirlene's in love with bio cause of the microscope. Haha, funny. Our fiesta ideas are all taken up already. Gah ):
After assembly, levina and i rushed to...and we managed to reach school rather early. Then we had delta meeting[:

But i had to rush off for csp. I have no idea why, but i just could not concentrate during csp today. And i've got alot to catch up on for chinese. Sheesh. I was really looking forward to trg the entire day. But somehow, when i went there, the atmosphere was just so different :/ ohwell.

Yujie and rugaiyah were so scandalous and funny today! HAHAH, yujie is damn klakka. Gosh, hilarious. And cause i made fun of yujie so much, she said she didnt want to be my table partner anymore. In less than 5 secs she said, nono she wants to. Hahah! Today, after trg, i told disciple that i wanted to go home to do hw. That proves it! Everyone's got the hw disease alr. Haha.

After hearing what someone told me, i really feel damn horrible. It's damn sad :/ What's us without you'll? Where's the motivation? I no longer feel that 'sense of belonging' anymore, but i really want to. Losing confidence, really. Not much time left. How?

wantback.

.Thursday, January 8, 2009 ' 11:39 PM Y

it aches; real bad

. ' 10:51 PM Y

It's only been 7 days since school started but it feels like a month :( gah! Even Ms Wee agrees. Well, for someone who sleeps for 11 hours daily during the holidays..haha. School's been alright(: esp with trgs! I felt so empty without trg today :/It just felt awkward. Yay yay, tmr :D but there's csp first. hurhur. Oh, my table partner is LOVER YUJIE for now! And they're two noisy, funny, cartoon ppl behind me. And dhivya's in front of me yo(: Ms Wan was so shocked when she found out that we are still in the same class, sadly. Haha! And yushu, if you're seeing this, thanks for....whenever there's pe or jogging! :D I've been having recess with delta the past few days. Yaye[:

Sheesh, everyone's turning into a nerd now. Everyone's going home immediately after sch/trg to mug mug. But it feels real good though(: Oh, i miss my old tamil class badlyyyy ): There's no one day when noorul and i dont comment on how we miss that class and how we dont quite like this class. But at least we still got Mr Omer! Hmmm anw, 3p's real nice. I'm sure we'll bond well(x

Thank you for today, tian qi((: And aliah and min!
Disciple, sat kay? (:

And i realised i haven't blogged about the trip yet. Sometime soon MAYBE. Recently, i dont worry much anymore, and it feels good(: And i left my file in school today. How silly. Thank you leena, for keeping it!

And about that and that, i think i'll keep my comments to myself for now. I feel much lighter these days.

.Monday, January 5, 2009 ' 10:38 PM Y

i've lost it all.
grah.

thanks for your help today(: