Hold on to the truth in your heart.

.Sunday, April 26, 2009 ' 11:18 PM Y

Eveyone's kinda nyeh-ish (?!) now.

, says:
your face + my face is the perfect picture
HAHA
saranya says:
HAHAHAH, awwww(:

Haha, that's why i say squadmates make me happy and i love them.
But gahhh, yujie the zheng is bugging me to tell her smth now.
Go fly kite!

I cant wait for school tmr to get my mind of all these complications.
I know rachel will crap and be blur and make me laugh and we'll get all high during the last lesson ( i noticed this) and i'll be happy.
I know dhivya will crap even more and laugh and tell me stories and i'll be happy.
I know yujie will look at me seriously and ask me why im so weird today and she'll say she wants to talk to me and i'll be happy.
I know i can bully rugaiyah and sometimes when she does talk seriosuly, i'll be happy.
I know i can see random people around school whom i can smile at and i'll be happy.
I know i'll walk past you feeling irritated. But i'll change that feeling soon.

My sister was sitting beside me when i received a msg from her saying that she wanted to eat fish and chips.

I want to...
Bye.

. ' 9:52 PM Y

i'm scared;
i'll never get over it.
never had such strong feelings before.

give me back my __.

. ' 12:27 AM Y

Today was productive(:
But not for Theresa i guess? Haha! Met theresa and yujie at ard 9.30 and i was the first to pig out. Haha, surprisingly, it wasn't theresa. Tehlian couldn't come cause she's sick. I doubt you'll see this, but if you do, TAKE CARE MONKEY! Yes, tehlian can really be monkey-like, haha. I did chem mostly cause there's a chem test next week. At least i understand everything now. Great! We left rather early though, around 3.30 cause that zheng yujie kept bugging us! TSKKKK. Theresa and i were actually planning to stay till 6. Theresa said she'll name her daughter Thursday if she won't get laughed at, cause she likes thursadays. HAHAHA, and she started telling me about her primary school tablepartners -_- but i listened though(:

Hello to you. That thing, yes. I think it's quite natural lah, provided you wanted it too. So yeah. But you got over it real fast right? Don't worry about that so much, it's over anw. Look at it positively and you'll be fine. There's a reason for everything that happens; and maybe there's a better opportunity waiting for you in the future. You should be more positive! It really helps. I hope you are not too bothered about that anymore(:
Random: i want to tell you smth, but i dont know how to put it. Grah :/

Please stop taking me for granted. I dislike it. For once, i was able to reject and i know i got my priorities right this time(: Ahhhh, i hate it when i cant express my feelings and also when i can, but not here.

I dont know how i feel about you now. I dont know if i still care. I dont know if i miss anything.
It's you; i dont know.

I had so many things to blog about, but i just forgot everything. Hurrr.
I doubt i'll be able to sleep cause im damn confused about smth now.
I srsly NEED to get over it.
It's very hot.

Goodnight.

Your flame may flicker, don't turn out the light.

.Friday, April 24, 2009 ' 9:58 PM Y

Yayyy, pp with squadmates tmr (:
Some ANTISOCIAL person is not coming; tsk you.
Im always excited to eat macs, haha.

I love rachel toh yi yun!
Although she can be a meano at times. Hurrr.

Jialun gave me a cute but mean note today.
Hahah, anw thanks.

Such a random post. Bye.

. ' 12:11 AM Y

I really cant sleep cause i drank too much of red bull.
Since im not in the mood to update, i shall go and read(: Now, yujie and i can read it together cause she's got it too.
The amount of joy you get by making someone happy is indescribable(:
And the someone is you, haha.

I owe someone smth.
When i update properly kay?
Sorry.

I did so much of chem today, i feel so happy(:

TP! MUST BE HAPPY AND GAY(: Don't let what SHE said affect you okay. You know yourself best. Jiayou!

I'm not gonna let sorrow get me down cause i believe that happiness will come around.
Positive thinking; helps alot. Heh.

.Monday, April 20, 2009 ' 11:11 PM Y

i'll wait for the day to hear it.
must keep your promise kay, emo freak.
i love you<3

. ' 9:17 PM Y

Hello all!

We had two free periods todayyyy(: Oh, the joy. Haha. But both periods were spent on completing ONE logs ws. I'm starting to like logs more and more. Yujie's so funny. She sat at my place and while watching the sec 1s run their 2.4, she would say "Ahhhh! Don't walk. Endure." Haha, it just sounds rather silly cause obviously they can't hear her. Conclusion; Yujie's spastic.
Yaye, our weekly session has been postponed! (:

There's leadership trg tmr. And rugaiyah's not coming to school ): I was talking to Dhivya earlier when i received a call from an unknown number. The person said "Hello Saranya, i'm Ms Chin." Obviously, i was shocked. But i then realised that it was naughty YI YUN! Haha. And she kept commenting on how different my voice sounded over the phone. Only when we started talking about interesting stuff, did i have to hang up. Grah ): Sorry rachel! Ohoh, and she said that one part of my blog post was scary :o She finally admitted smth on her own(: So sweet.

Ms Chin ran after me this morning and tapped me. I was so shocked cause i just reached school and i was still feeling sleepy. After she left, i realised that i didn't really understand what she told me. Haha. Today, when i really wanted to jog, there just had to be no jogging. Tsk. The weather was so pretty today.

I stayed back in school to study today. I decided to stay and class, and it was productive. Great! And i'm using that as an excuse for myself to waste time here now. I've still got many many msn convos to read, but there's not time :/ Levina's so sweet, really(x Tried carrying some of my classmates today, but i failed miserably. Nothing's impossible! I will be able to..some day. Haha.
I heard from some people that the chem common test is gonna be on next monday. That's great cause rachel toh and i will only be able to score well in one section which we understood really well. Oh playing hangman with rachel's really fun. Haha.

I want to tell you so many things, talk to you for hours, know what's going on. But it just seems impossible now. Some feelings just cannot be expressed.

I didn't talk much to squadmates today and i realised i feel as though i've not done smth. Heh, rather weird. Okay my sis just said i'm one of the bimbos in her life. Two of her friends are the president and vice and im the treasurer. HAHAH WTH, that's how am immature 21 year old craps.

Hey you you. CHEER UP(: You couldn't express yourself, so i really dont know what exactly is going on. But yeah, you've got to be happy! Smile now! Yayzxzxz <3
They say; go to bed feeling happy; for tomorrow might never be.
Goodbye.

HAPPY 15th CONSTANCE CHO :D

one day, i WILL be able to carry you. Haha.

The three essentials for a good relationship;

love, sacrifice, time.

Is it that tough?

.Sunday, April 19, 2009 ' 11:44 PM Y

i think about you,
maybe more that i should.

hurting real bad now;

. ' 10:15 PM Y

Don't you feel the least bit guilty?
Do you even care? I doubt you do, but i'm not gonna assume.

That naughty pokes stole my pens ):
DHIVYA THE NAIDU! Stop slacking and do your compre!
Guess what? I wrote smth for you, but i wont give it to you till i get my letter :p Hehheh.
Yujie called me last night; but i couldn't talk to her ):
See lah, the scandals scandal together and make me sad. Tsk.
Can't go out with squadmates this week for our weekly slacking cum mugging sessions ): Gahhh. Postpone to thurs can?(:

Read through old convos.
Can't believe you talked to me about such stuff.
But guess what? You're doing the exact same thing now. Heh.
I'm not gonna expect anything from you anymore.
I'll try not to at least.
It's just you.

I'm so glad! I finally decided to start studying history and yay, i like it! Haha.
38 more days to MYEs. Okay, it really is near.

This post is so random and it's getting nowhere.
I shall attempt to complete my tamil compre now.

. ' 12:44 AM Y

I stayed alone at home cause SOMEONE cheated my feelings ):
Tsk you.

Rugaiyah sent me a msg saying that she has memorized my hp number. Hahah, wth?! But it was so cuteee :p And levina sent me a msg saying : ' I shall see the great on Monday. I must be out of my mind to be honouring you.' HAHAH, simple stuff like these make me laugh alot(:

Okay i shall be random.
1. RR first aid duty with Rugaiyah this whole week was awesomeness!
2. My sister's been calling me a bimbo for a very long time already.
3. I knew i could not trust you; but i still did. Why, i dont know.
4. Why do MYEs seem so near? :/
5. There's dental appt tmr and i think i'll have to go alone.
6. I've got the book from dear NAIDU(:
7. I really really wanted to go out with some of my CLASSMATES yest. Grah ):
8. Levina's so sweet(x
9. Talking to Marilyn on Thursday made me happy. Be honoured kay!
10.Byebye, im going to do CHEM (yucks)

I hope my sister's still awake, cause i am scaredddd

Why do you do this to me?

Sometimes, it feels really horrible when you need someone with you but there ain't anyone.

.Monday, April 13, 2009 ' 11:20 PM Y

So many mixed feelings :/

Lessons today were kinda draggy. I couldn't get up this morning. And yujie kept saying that it was weird to see me today(?!) Haha. And she kept talking about how much she wanted to talk to me throughout the entire day. Oh and! This is the best. She said she was damn happy when she talked to me for 2 hours on thurday night. Haha, actually im not that nice to talk to lah cause after some time i'll start ignoring you. Heh.

Sometimes i know that things aren't right, but i still say it's okay. It hurts. But i believe it's for the best.

Really happy about that(: You just proved smth today.

I think i've got the crying flue.

It's a flue, can't stop that easily aye.

Goodnight world.

.Sunday, April 12, 2009 ' 9:20 PM Y

I was just talking to Dhivya.

Dhivya: Can i call you at 9.30?
Saranya: Yah. I know you want to talk to me.
Dhivya hangs up.

You should go and look up the dictionary for the meaning of manners my dear.
HAHAHAHHA!

. ' 12:05 AM Y

I just came back from my cousin's 21st birthday party. I'm glad we didn't stay till the end, cause honestly, i don't quite enjoy such parties. Firstly, it's such a waste of money. Secondly, it's a waste of time. Thirdly, you don't achieve anything by doing it. As a fact, growing older isn't something we should be happy about cause the older you are, it means the more stress and responsibilities you'll have and the more you're gonna have to worry. Okay, maybe i just don't have much life huh. Haha.

Tamil lesson on thursday was rather interesting. He spent half of the lesson talking about life. Sometimes, whatever he says might make us angry and stuff but it's only cause it pricks our conscience and we might feel guilty. But if you really think about it, whatever he says makes alot of sense. Dhivya told me that she used to think about whatever he said in class, whenever she got home. Haha, i never knew that. But, i was happy to hear that. Haha, no idea why.

I went for squad outing yesterday! Only 7 people turned up ): Okay lah, we still had fun! We did really silly stuff, as usual. But the thing that matters most is, we did have fun and we managed to settle whatever stuff we had to. So yaye(: But we left rather early though. I shall post all the pics once Amirah sends them.

Dhivya was trying to help me with a math question today. And i really didn't understand what she was talking about at all! But that sweet dodo, didn't give up on me. She decided to calm herself down and explain to me so slowly. Andand, guess what! I understood..after like 15 mins?! Hahah, but i was so touched. So sweet ah someone! This might be a really small thing, but it says and means alot. It ain't the biggest thing that matters in life; the many smallest incidents are the ones that matter. Thanks alot, love(:

Yay, i finally managed to tag at kallangwave's blog!
Stay strong waves!
I love my TWENTY-THREE <3
.

If we want to recieve, we need to learn to give first;

Maybe we will end with our hands empty,

but our heart will be filled with love.

.Thursday, April 9, 2009 ' 10:54 PM Y

all i know is that i'm freaking pissed now.
you know what is that word which starts with the letter r?
look it up it in the dictionary please.

Why's everyone being so self-centered.
Come on, look around you;
You are not the only one you know.
Gah, there's a whole lot of people around you!

I've been talking to yujie for an hour already.
There's something wrong; really wrong.
I wish it would never come :/
Squad outing tmr. Still don't know if i'm going.

, says:
saren! i was so excited to see you online!

HAHAHAH!

So many mysteries surrounding, but i have no clue;

. ' 4:18 PM Y

hundreds of thoughts are pushing its way forward;

.Tuesday, April 7, 2009 ' 9:50 PM Y

I love sitting near the window. Esp during the 2.4 period! It's so fun to just look outside and watch everyone run. Oh, and not forgetting to comment, Haha. Anyway, 2.4 was today. I was so scared; but i have no idea why. But it didn't turn out too bad. Rachel C is so pro! Her stamina is like..wah! Haha. Oh and 3P rocks(: I think the last person who ended got a D. Which means no one failed. Great man! Gah, tmr's the cedar runway thing :/

Spent the time after school with squadmates. Omg, i cannot stand shabrina! All i had to do was to look at her and i couldn't stop laughing. I couldn't even sit next to her. Ms Wee's damn sad :/ Haiz. Okay, 5 at once is really alot. JIAYOU DHIVYA and AMIRAH :D

I think your attitude sucks. Big time. Go and fly kite lah.
Yay, i finally bought the sweet for rachel(x

Grah, Dhivya just has to find smth to irritate me with! But you still make me laugh so much(x
Okay, so i'm SM. Sothu Maadu. Haha, thanks!

You! JIAYOU JIAYOU(:

Goodbye.
I'm tired.
I'm feeling so :/ now.

.Monday, April 6, 2009 ' 11:53 PM Y

I'm quite happy today(:
Thanks to Rachel Toh, Naidu, Levina and squadmates!
Lessons were kinda fast today.

Yest, i msged Priyanka wishing her happy birthday. And she replied me hours later asking me who i was?! Thanks lah, haha. And i said i was SARANYA, THE GREAT! She replied: Always at your service madam. HAHAHA, omgosh damn hilarious. When i saw her today, that was the first thing i thought about and i just burst out laughing.

JiaHui, i dont know if you'll see this; but cheer up okayyy :D

. ' 12:58 AM Y

But i don't know why i miss you so much;

1. Levina surprised me with a really really super sweet letter on Friday. I was so touched, srsly(x THANK YOU SO MUCH LEVINA! Your letter made my day(: i love you, kuku!
2. I love admiring the clouds and i love nature alot alot, even though i don't look like someone who does.
3. I have feelings; alot of them. Although i look like i dont care about what's going on around me and i keep smiling.
4. I had chicken chop for dinner. MOCK lah of course!
5. It's NINE days away:/
6. Rachel Toh's my kind of table partner(: She rocks.
7. I've got many stories to tell Yujie the naggy but nice mama.
8. There's trg tmr(x
9. Should i quit csp?
10. I miss you.
11. It's an indescribable feeling.
12. I try so hard to let go, but i just can't.
13. I love Dhivya the Naidu(: Alot.
14. Omgzxzxz it's 2!

Goodnight world.
I hope this week will be better.
JIAYOU, you(:

. ' 12:00 AM Y

have you ever wondered why you do so much for someone and it never seems to be appreciated?
the feeling sucks.

yaye, i can't wait to spend more time with you(:
it's been really long actually

.Sunday, April 5, 2009 ' 8:28 PM Y

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHENG YUJIE AND PRIYANKA :D

i only have a pic of yujie!

yay, yujie is such a naggy but nice mama, and priyanka's so cute in a spastic way!

That's why i love my squadmates(:

. ' 11:59 AM Y

RANDOM PICTURES;

A few of us from 3p during OAC

DELTA!

This is how BEAUTIFULLY my tp draws! Haha.

PEI XUAN(:

Rugaiyah thinks she's cute :O

Rugaiyah's crying to herslef inside

This was taken last year, after some CSP oral test
Amirah and her PINK umbrella, me, sharizah, dhivya, amreetaa

Yay, DEBBIE! :D
she LOOKS tall cause she's sitting on my lap

I shall end this post with a huge smile! (:

.Thursday, April 2, 2009 ' 9:22 PM Y

Dhivya didnt come again today ): Tsk you. But at least i saw you after school(:

Lessons were boring, except for maths. Tamil was horrible, grah. We just copied 25 sentences throughout the entire lesson. Wth?! Bio was...heh. I really want Mrs Gay to come back. Jogged with Singyi today and she never wants to start cheers. Aiyerr. Rachel gave me sweets today(: Yay, i like.

Talked to Debbie for quite some time after trg yest. I admitted; that i kinda miss her actually. Haha. Gah, i really do. Haha. She admitted that she enjoyed last year cause of me. Awww(: haha. We talked about really random stuff and played and did silly stuff, as usual. Yay, this is what i call simply joy[:

Spent the time after school with squadmates :D Oh my, theresa is so funny! She talks non-stop, she laughs in some really funny manner, she does silly stuff, she acts so spastic, but she rocks(: haha. She never failed to keep on doing funny things which mad me laugh. And tehlian kept admiring me (i assume) haha! Oh oh! And Yujie is overly obsessed; it's srsly damn freaky. But okay, I'm happy at least you too agree that you're mad. Haha! And surprisingly, rugaiyah was rather quiet today. Yujie and rugai tricked the other three of us today! Omg i felt so stupiddd. Hahahah! Anw, thank you for today(:

I was damn hurt by what you said. But, i managed to control myself. I can't believe you feel that way. So that's what you're been thinking all along huh? Somehow, you just spat it out today? Grah, im damn disappointed. Hmmm, it really feels damn horrible. I hate it when that topic comes up, srsly. No one knows;

To all those from Cedar Tldds Dance;
CONGRATULATIONS FRIENDS(: Stop feeling bad cause they is nothing to feel bad about. You know that you guys worked really hard for it and did really well. You gave your best shot on tuesday and that is was matters most. Anw, the whole thing was just damn crap and CRAP. So quit blaming yourselves and cheer up okayyy (:

To those from band;
It's TOMORROW! JIAYOU JIAYOU (:
esp youuu, spas(x

Meet Theresa, the cute, spastic girl(:

HAHAH, (:
oops sorry, i just realised it's tilted :/

i'll let you go, i'll set you free;
wozhendexiangnianni

.Wednesday, April 1, 2009 ' 9:15 PM Y

I'm tired; physically and mentally.

5 items today. Hmmm, sit and reach was horrible! I never seem to be able to do it. Gah. Standing broad jump was gooood (: Haha. I rmb i had to try so many times in primary 4 just to pass standing broad jump. Haha. Inclined pull up was killing me slowly. I started screaming after i did 10. Haha, no idea why actually. Yujie was trying so hard to get her gold, haha! So enthu(x

Went to some old folks' home today. Hmmm, left the place feeling quite sad, but i had a sense of satisfaction. The elderly there were so cuteeee, like babies! But still, nothing can beat the love of my life :p haha. One of the elderly said she liked singing you are my sunshine and the way she sang it along with us was so cute, ahhhh. But it was rather sad seeing them like that. Another one of them told us alot of stories and she was so sweet. She said take care, don't play so much, study hard and we must go back there with A grades the next time. Haha, so cute. These are little incidents and moments that impact me alot, make me realise many things and which really make me happy(:

Thank you pokepoke for supporting my weight today, although i know you were suffering in silence. Haha!

Sheesh, i really really dislike tempers. Grah, you're being so irritating. Just how many times must i remind you? Ahhhh freak.
Oh my god, i hate it whenever i get so angry that i cry. You suck. I still don't know why i depend on you so much. I guess i just have no choice eh? But you seem to be very important to me. Why man why?

I've lost the mood to study, thanks to you idiot.

It only takes one message to make my day. Thank you.(: