nostalgia;

2010-09-18T19:36:00.004+08:00

Sorry i dont wish to explain myself now.
You've done this to me twice; i never said anyth.
You've found someone too.
And you just contradicted what you told me a week ago.
But nvm i dont wanna argue with you.
Hmm maybe it isnt better after all cause im afraid i'll be cold towards you :/

AHHH 15 NOV!

2010-09-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh meltsxzxzxzxz.

2010-09-13T21:03:00.003+08:00

Hmm this just occurred to me.
What the hell is wrong w that p__ huh.
Im not being biased or wtv here but more of practical.
If it's what you're doing out of anger or power, then you're just so shallow seriously.
Unless there's at least one good reason for your action?
Sighhh and this is one good reason why i cant wait to leave cedar.
:/

And, i miss US so bad.
Dont blame you for not feeling the same way as me.
People change, life changes.
Get used to it.

2010-09-11T14:52:00.002+08:00

Thursday was freaking awesomeeee(:
Spent my day at bishan library with V and Fats.
I was kinda afraid it would be weird but thank god it wasnt.
It wasnt exactly productive for me as usual, when im with fats.
But nvm, i loved every moment i spent with them that day.
It was like some primary school outing though haha.
Thank youuu, you two for thursday <3

School's starting ahhh i dont know how im gonna get up early ):
Oh yeah trip to parthi is confirmed and we're going for christmas!!
Im kinda excited about joining the choir and all (I CAN SING OKAY).
But 12 days seems really really long suddenly :/

2010-09-11T14:49:00.002+08:00

Just read your letter, after more than 10mths at least.
Cant believe i freaking cried :/
But it's okay, i love the way things btwn us are now.
Still rmb that one particular sentence you said 2 yrs ago.
And im thankful for that.
(:

2010-08-30T17:09:00.003+08:00

Okay decided to revive it now.
Wanted to abandon this blog actually, but the tags from rosalind, p and boo made me wanna revive it(:
And there are nice memories here too, just that im not letting YOU read it go study.
Im sorry if im missing out on punctuations and stuff, i got influenced :/

Hmm okay i dont quite know where to start from.
Prelim2 over.
Ahhh cant wait for o's to be over.

Today started off quite well and i was glad i could spend time w you like we used to butttt tsk your stupid phone spoilt it all ):
Teachers' Day celebrations tmr.
The celebrations has never been the exciting part. It's when ex cedarians you wanna see come back that makes the whole day special. But no one interesting
is coming back tmr ):
Hmm a few maybe? But not the few special ones ):

Life has been quite good so far.
With those occasional upsetting moments ofc.
But knowing that there are people there for you to fall back on is a really great comfort.

Im really sleepy now.
Hahaha oh yeah i woke up with certain scenes in my mind which i freaking couldnt forget!

2010-08-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

I'M GONNA REVIVE MY BLOG SOOOOON :D

2010-07-06T00:06:00.003+08:00

STUPID TINY FONTS AGAIN.

2010-07-05T23:53:00.006+08:00

Cant wait for school tmr cause i really love time spent with my friends and classmates now(:
15 more weeks shit i cant believe.
Cant wait to leave so i dont have to see certain faces.
Those faces that make me say 'heyhey bff' HAHA.
But sigh, dont wanna leave cause of afew juniors too.

It's been two weeks.
Things are moving really faaaast.
(: and ): ?
Mixed feelings i suppose?

But anyw thanks for the super quiet day (:
HAHA i'll die keeping quiet for so long.

really have no idea why im blogging here.

and youuu please be okay ):

2010-07-04T10:47:00.002+08:00

All over again?
(:

2010-06-26T21:19:00.006+08:00

Alright i've unlocked my blog.
After being pestered :p
But doubt i'll post much here.
and i had to delete so many posts before unlocking damn troublesome leh yall.

I'm currenly blogging elsewhere.
Find it if you can.
Ask me if you want.
Will tell you if you say i'm awesome :p
haha im kidding.

for now, fml.
yes it's my fault cause i chose this path.
so too bad saranya, live with it.

i'm so damn tired of missing people.
gave up on you.
____ came along
you really keep me going now.
thankyou M. HAHA sorry i like that name :p

And ofc, my whiny idiot(: yeah THE GREATEST LOVE OF MY LIFE.
coughs coughs

2010-06-20T22:19:00.002+08:00

Feeling like shitzxzx now.
Argh.
Stay away from the lappy stay away from the lappy stay away from the lappy.

Okay smth to look forward to tmr.
SEEING IDIOT!! omg i havent seen you for 2 freaking long weeks! ):

damn it okay i'm gonna bathe now and drown in my new love.

2010-06-19T20:32:00.014+08:00

One more week. Dammit.
I want school to start cause i'll have more motivation to study, i can start controlling my diet and i miss peopleee!!
But i also dont want school to start cause, it means 6 more weeks to prelims2 and sigh, even more mundane life ):

Past week has been okay.
Wednesday and thursday were good!
Macs breakfast, studying in school alone, SKIPPING LUNCH AWESOME, studying out with friends, then dinner with you = awesome much(:

Met and talked to farah and alamelu on wednesday.
Alamelu's such an idiottt! Hur i'll get your ez link one day kay, one day.
Just like how farah's gonna treat me macs ONE DAY. haha K kids.
Walked arnd school with A to certain places with memories.
Btw Farah, i'm gonna ignore you the next time you say you're scared of me.
It's been err.. EIGHT MONTHS yknow.
Tskk.
Anyw, thanks for the company two of you! :D

Talked to tammie quah quite abit on wednesday too!
Love the way nothing's changed.

Hey you.
Thank you for making time to have dinner with me.
I really appreciate it alot.
See, that's all it takes.
Making time for each other(:

I've been messaging my sissy alot recently.
Haha quite funny.
Sissy's gonna be home quite late from now.
Plus she wont be studying hur.
Think i'll study out late when school reopens.
Anyone wanna join? (:

Spent the whole of yest afternoon with HACA.
Okay la, at least i can joke arnd with him.
So yaye, think i'll enjoy studying with him more.

Been talking to p quite alot recently.
I really thank god for that.
It's been 3 years. Rather long eh?
Well, leaving cedar in 4 more months.
Cant afford to leave with broken relationships.
And hey, thank you for the company throughout this hols(:

Leaving cedar in 4 more months.
I think my countdown started arnd this time, back in sec 1. haha.
Dont know if i'm looking forward or dreading.
I dread it cause of my friends and juniors.
Looking forward so it'll be easier to forget some stuff which bother me alot.
I really hope things work out well next year grahh.

I received a totally unexpected msg today.
Wow, it's been arnd 6 months since we last talked properly.
Seems like only two months ago though.
Shit why does time fly when i dont want it to grr.
Found out afew interesting stuff today hehe.

And you made me realise that my liking has lasted for quite a long time eh.
Hope i wont be like you in that sense! please please please.

Quite funny how we get along so well whenever you're 'dumped'.
Haha sorry.

And maybe now i know why i didnt wanna say it.
Cause i knew it wouldnt make a diff.
Or make things worst?
Though i can never figure how you're feeling.
You're really number one when it comes to taking me on a roller coaster ride.
Sigh.

Ohmygod such a long post.
I better stop.
Emotional rants elsewhere hahaha.
Too bad b :p

2010-06-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

Cant believe i'm sitting here commenting cursing and whining about the players with my sissy.
Off to bed after this match.
Long day tmr!

2010-06-16T19:30:00.004+08:00

Hello Little girl, this is for you.
I just wanna say, thank you very much for reminding about those stuff.
It's what wakes me up actually.
Okay i'm gonna be happy now kay (:
So you be happy too!
Dk why you're feeling horrible.
But you shd read your own previous post, and cheer up :D

Thanks SEE KAY :D
You totally seem uninterested in meeting me lah, IDIOT.
):
Sadzxzx.

I'll blog again later.
Have lots to say actually.

dont know why the font's so tiny. grrr.

2010-06-15T23:07:00.003+08:00

This is so weird.
You're back and i'm happy.

Really sorry V :/
I was just afraid of spoiling your mood.

The best way for me to get over things is to sleep.
It's so early grah.
Alright off to bed.

2010-06-15T01:35:00.001+08:00

Thank you baby(:
Very much.
You knew what i needed.

Too fast too fast.
We got to slow down a little.
I'm tired of fighting such feelings away.
I'm sorry.
Glad i met you today though(:

Helloyou, i miss you.

2010-06-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AOM! :D
a leeetle late, haha.

Just came back a few minutes ago, feeling quite :/
But Aom's message made me smileee(:
Haha, hope you had an awesome birthday!

Naidu's so cute.
Esp whenever you get worried if i dont return by the time i mentioned.
Awww(x

2010-06-10T23:49:00.005+08:00

Sheesh it's gonna be friday and i have no idea what i'm doing for you ):
Plus i'm leaving for kl on sat.
Which means i only have tmr.
Grahhh ohgod.

Today V said that people who shop for dresses are bimbos.
HAHAHA.
That whole convo was quite hilarious.

Felt quite good today.
Started studying early so i was rather productive.
Lunch was retarded. What else to expect when naidu and alamelu are there? :p
Oh naidu said that alamelu has a vegetarian face HAHAH JOKE MAN.
Naidu left arnd 3 plus then priya and priyanka joined me.
omg all three of them are damn retarded.
"PAYAM!", "WHAT'S BAYAM?" , "IT'S BAYAM!"
Hahaha hilarious ttm.
Basically, today was productive and the company was nice(:

And seeing you after that made me feel even better.
It was rather unexpected but, maybe i do miss you :/
Okay whatever i am not giving it a chance.

Ohoh, CK said smth damn sweet yest!
Haha it totally made me smile like an idiot. (Like you!)
Yknow what.
We havent met for a week eh!
Hurry hurry meet up soon please(:

Wanted to run today but the park was so crowded.
So i ended up skipping at home!

5 more days.
I'm not looking forward to it.
Was talking about you yest and realised that i'm actually losing you bit by bit.
No matter how much i hate the way you treat me sometimes, i cant deny the fact that you mean alot to me.
Sigh.

People whom you are close to have the power to affect you the most.
And that sucks.

2010-06-09T23:46:00.002+08:00

Thank you for all the unexpected little sentences or words that made me smile today (:
You refers to four people btw.

I musttt wake up early tmr.
And i must go to sch on friday! (:

Retainers suckkkk.

Naidu i'm waiting.
I go eat cakezxzx first.
HAHAHAH damn funny okay shit.
(inside joke)

2010-06-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

All it took was a simple comment, some thought, and initiation.
As simple as that.

I realised i have the tendency to forget if i replied messages or forget to reply when i message people continuously.
I'm sorry sorry sorry!
It has been happening so often recently.
Can just spam me la i dont mind :p

Ohhh he's such an idiottt seriously.

Today was pretty nice(:
Just that it was a little short eh?

2010-06-06T22:49:00.004+08:00

so cute so cute so cuteeeee.

"I'm gonna cry."
"Ohhh (pause). You want tissue?"
Sigh you're such an idiot.
Stop cheating my feelings.
Stupidgirl.
But i love you lah(:

It's been really long since i told someone i love him/her.
That's cause i really think love has lost it's meaning.
So if i do tell you that, i really mean it.

Hello V, you shd be on your way back now.
Not bad ah, i remember the time.
I just wanna say, thankyou for tryinggg to make your messages longer(:
And for your really entertaining blog posts!
HAHA, thankyou! :D

btw, think i'm really gonna lock my blog soon.
ask to be invited kay(:

'Experience is the best teacher'
Is that your answer to me?

Okay CK, i'm gonna FIGHT.
Thanks dear, for all your reminders and whinings and complains about ___.

2010-06-04T23:41:00.003+08:00

Results out.
I'm really affected by my results so dont assume that i aint just cause i dont mention it.
Gah you're just annoying.
And i cant believe that you were the one who actually made me feel better.
Ohwell, i thank god for that at least.

I have been attempting my delete some of my 3000 plus messages, over the past few days.
But my mum already helped me delete the latest 3000 plus messages.
My birthday messages are gone ): ): ):
I think that was the sweetestttt message i recieved from you ):
And all the unexpected birthday messages are gone too sigh.
But. It's really nice to read old messages. haha.

I only have 33 remaining messages from baby ):
I'm glad that at least i still have the really sweet and memorable ones.
But 2000 plus from aom! Hahaha. Omg some messages are damn hilarious.
All those messages made me realise that i miss my sec 3 life quite badly.
Almost everything was perfect.
Almost.

The previous week was so un-eventful.
Three more weeks left i better make good use of it.
Monday was totally unproductive. Ended up spending most of the time shopping.
Tuesday wasnt any better. Just sat at my fav tpy house and chatted for about four hours. But it was nice(: Oh and shix volunteered to make drinks for us! Aww but i wont forgive you for all your perverted acts on thursday and friday.
Wednesday was quiteee productive. Talked to michelle for quite some time(:
Thurdsay and friday were spent in school getting back papers. Ohoh but i saw someone on thursday!(:
Such a boringgg week.

Sissy's going away for camp for four days next week.
I think i'll miss her though it's only four days.
No one to play badminton with, to go shopping with, to annoy at night and one less person to play monopoly with ):
I better not stay home next week cause i know i'll slack my days away.

Omg rachel and shixian! Badminton! Hahah we really damn fail okay.
Oh have i mentioned that i think i'm less scared of dogs now?
Like finallyyy.

I wasnt really longing for it. So whatever.

2010-06-03T15:33:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling like crap now.

But.
Thank you for trying to make me feel better, Disciple and V.
I really appreciate it.

I still have alot more to say.
But i'm not in the mood to.

2010-06-02T21:03:00.000+08:00

Hello, i've unlocked my blog.
And my archives are gone(:
Dont be disappointed okay?
Whoever came up with that idea. Tsk.

I had lots to say.
But i'll update later.
Tamil compo now ):

Shiatz, tmr.

2010-05-30T22:10:00.003+08:00

farah kental ah says:
fine fine, you are cute, awesome, ego, and everything else(:

Awwww(:
Sometimes, i really thank god for such friends.
We havent spoken for quite some time, but nothing changes.
We can still joke, laugh, tease and even talk about serious stuff.
And i'll never forget how we started talking. As in really talking, not the hi-bye kind.
Hahaha tsk you.

You said you wont have fun. So, dont die of boredom during camp!
And dont miss me too much okay? :p
Wow, an entire post about you.
Be honoured!
:D

dont assume anything, just cause i didnt mention anything.
i'm just not saying it.

2010-05-30T13:12:00.001+08:00

I know i'm not supposed to expect anything.
So i'd better stop expecting.

CL?

2010-05-30T12:13:00.001+08:00

Sianjipuaaaa.

2010-05-28T23:53:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry i'm being difficult.

2010-05-28T17:47:00.003+08:00

I was deleting my messages and i burst out laughing when i came across the one ck sent me in school yesterday.
Omggg HAHAHAHA. It's really hilarious.

Anyw, your bed's pretty shiok, idiot.
So dont blame me okayyy.
I aint a sleepyhead tsk.
The feeling may not be the same, but still, (:

The holidays are here.
It's just gonna be study study study school school school.
And maybe, catching up with old friends!
Like what yj said, now i would say i dont want the holidays.
But when the holidays come to an end, i would want longer holidays.

Shixian's such a pervieeee.
Yes i know you have secret desires but still!
Ohgod, i'd better not sit next to you anym.
Esp during lectures or talks.
Try it on dhivya. HAHAHA.
Oh, i was thinking about you when i 'liked' a particular fb grp.
Be honoured okay! (:

This aint gonna work out.
But i do miss messaging you.
Sorry.
btw, all the best for your mt paper.

2010-05-25T02:04:00.004+08:00

The mere presence of someone you like evokes a special feeling in you.
I'd better fight that feeling off before it takes control of me.

Sigh i'm just confused.
Everyone's asking/ telling me different things.

Dhivya's been mia for quite some time i'm quite worried now.
Please please please be okay.
Sorry for ps-ing you today.
We still have tmr (:

Talking about the past does bring back nice memories.
But embarrassing and stupid memories too.
Heh

No school tmr i dont likeee.

It's really stuffy.
I'm feeling restless and lousy.
Hope i fall asleep soon.

2010-05-24T19:56:00.000+08:00

Damn.
Think i'll just maintain a distance.

2010-05-24T03:34:00.002+08:00

I'm having gastric now, this suckssss.
I dont know what's this sudden weird feeling about.
Confuseddd.
Maybe i shd just lock my blog eh?

I'm looking forward to spending time with an idiot before the paperrr (:
I want to sleep i want to sleep i want to sleep.
But i'm not sleepy.
Grahhhh.

2010-05-24T01:49:00.002+08:00

Last paper last paper last paper.
I want to go shoppinggg.
Finally an afternoon paper tmr.
It'll feel damn good when i wake up at 530 and realise that i can go back to sleep without having to snooze (:
My table's in such a terrible mess, that i have been studying in my bedroom the past 2 days.

Anyw,

Thank You A the Lianzxz, Bones, Boyboy, Farah, Skinny, Tehlian, and V for all your encouragements and jiayous (:
And the busy woman who actually has boobs (HAHA i still havent gotten over it), for studying with me, listening to me rant geog and the goodlucks (:
And ofc, Baidu Disciple Shix and Yoojay for all the crazy, high, retarded and panicky moments tgt in btwn papers. And getting all high when we realise we have similar answers -_- Haha, lovely company (:

TOODLES.

2010-05-23T20:45:00.002+08:00

When your mind accepts something, you experience pleasure.
When your mind rejects something, you experience pain.

Defy your mind, and accept the pain.

2010-05-23T01:37:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry i broke your heart ):
you're still one of my favs dont worry lahzxz.

2010-05-23T01:07:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry i'm not always there for you.

thinking too much?
or what.

Bones, go for what you think is right.
What is best.
I'll stand by you regardless of your decision (:

2010-05-22T15:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, being alone can be really nice.

Main papers are overrr. Felt realy good after geog ended yest.
One more to gooo.
History aint that bad actually.
Two more for thandapaani (HAHA)
Jiayou okay, you can look forward to spending time with me after thattt (: hahaha.

You.
Really dont know what i am supposed to do or how i feel towards this whole issue.
I miss?
But. Grahhh.

Hey you J,
Please do cheer up soon okay?
What you're going through isnt easy, but you got to accept it.
It's just yet another cycle.
Stay strong girl.

Break away?

2010-05-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

I dont expect you to be there for me when i need someone.
I never did, cause i know i'll end up being disappointed.
You know i'm not feeling good yet you ignore that.
I'm totally used to it and fine with that.
But what you did today really put me off.

Insensative? Or what?

Damn this.
Screw geog, seriously.

2010-05-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

This sucks real bad.
Wonder how you're doing.
Dont you miss the EYE period last year? :p
Bio paper 2 was horriddd.
Not having a confident answer for at least one out of twelve marks of a question sucks.
All thanks to, ___.

Major whining session with fellow lianzxz A just now.
Haha, if you're reading this, thanks for letting me rant (:
It's been quite some time since i ranted okay.

I really really cant wait for geog to be over.
The feeling i've been having the whole of today was just bad.
Attempts to motivate myself by motivating others failed too ):
Havent touched an entire theme and it's alrd 1125.
What am i doing here.

Last night was bad.
Lousy lousy lousy.
Selfish, but i want you here now.

2010-05-18T21:28:00.001+08:00

Bones you just made my day (:
haha, be honoured girl!

love?

2010-05-18T20:21:00.004+08:00

I hate this feeling so damn much. Grah.
I dont know why i feel so freaking unprepared.
Sigh.

Too many things have been going on the past week.
Too many things in a such a short period of time.
I havent really stopped, and pondered.
What's all these about.
Wtv it is, you keep me going. And i thank you for that(:

Yes i'm a sucker when it comes to prioritizing.
I know that so i better do smth about it.

I'm still hoping that what aom said wont be true.
Please please please.
And i havent seen aom in a longgg time ):

Monday monday monday.
Goooo baby (:

Hey A and P, thankyou very very much for the letter (:

Dont do this to me please, tyvm.
i think what sx said really is true :/

2010-05-15T00:43:00.004+08:00

i'm just so afraid i'd be over dependant.
But still, thank you (:
Memories la memories.

Yes naidu, i missed your noise today ): I'll tell you THAT thing sometime soon kay.
Four more days.
I'm not fully prepared for any paper.
I'd better be exceptionally productive the next four days.

Thanks bones(:
Workout aye? heh.

2010-05-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

After listening to everything ___ said,
i realised i miss everything so damn much ):
it's like i'm yearning for it.
though it aint right.

Whywhywhy.

2010-05-08T22:58:00.003+08:00

You're welcome, ___.
You have no idea how much i wish to either write you a letter, msg you, or start a convo with you.
I really feel damn guilty whenever i know you arent doing good, but all i do is to watch from a distance.
I'll willingly come up to you, and listen out to you too.
But i'm afraid of its consequences.
Imissyou, yknow.

2010-05-01T01:56:00.002+08:00

Skinny skinny skinny(:
I'm still amused my the fact that we started a convo at the same time. HAHA.
Anyw, CONGRATULATIONS (: and, Jiayou!
I'm really glad we managed to catch up after quite some time.
But i'm still sad that you dont want to tell me about that thing ): ): ):
Sianzxzx.

2010-05-01T01:19:00.004+08:00

Cross country!
It was the best one i've had in Cedar. Thankyou, Rachel (:
We didnt plan on really competing since the beginning, so we decided to run slowly cause we couldnt find substitutes.
At the end, i was very satisfied cause never at any point did i have any intention to stop and we slowed down to help priyanka too!
And i didnt feel tired at all after it ended. MAYBE, just maybe, my stamina's improving! Haha.

But there was no milo truck this year. Damn cheat feelings!
Cheered other classmates and juniors on after we ended.
The psychological effect of cheering someone on towards the end is amusing. It was nice to see them look out for who's cheering them on, smile, then sprint. Just awesome.

Lunch at pizza hut at tm.
3/4 of the people there were cedarians, as usual.
I ate alotttt.
Slacked for quite some time, then took my fav long bus-ride home (:
I attempted to sleep, but couldnt. Tsk.

All it takes is to show her that you care.
Listen out to her, and make her feel important.
It aint that tough.
And that's what you need.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH! :D i realised i have many names for you, haha.

2010-04-30T01:14:00.001+08:00

The feeling's fading off.
You're like any other normal person now.

Amaths mock was wayyy better than emaths.
And it even made me have the motivation to do more amaths after it ended.

Went home tgt with shixian for the first time today. Quite amusing.
I got to admit, it was a nice bus-ride home (:
I was nice enough to keep my earpiece away to listen to you and that seldom happens so be honoured kay! hehe.
Glad you're finally opening up a leeetle, haha.
You got me thinking real hard today.

Cross-country tmr.
Third and last one in Cedar.
I want to slack run.
Hope xin yun takes over me! pls pls pls.

2010-04-28T23:17:00.001+08:00

You're so full of pretence. Have you forgotten about ___?
It's so obvious that you arent even the least bit sincere in what you said.
I really dk why i'm so affected by this.
I feel really bad for _ _ , but it's okay.
I know _ _ 'll get out of this, as a much stronger person (:

One year.
ThankYouVeryMuch.
D-ing.

2010-04-28T21:50:00.004+08:00

Heart pain heart pain.
Dont belong?
Well, thankyou. Verymuch.

Okay amaths now.
I've got to stop getting distracted.

Oh and have i mentioned, that you're really ungrateful?
And you take things and people for granted.
Gosh. wonder why i even felt that slight sense of happiness whenever you messaged me to get information.

It's been quite some time since i last felt this way.
life sucks take happy drugs like sweets. sigh.

JIAYOU FOR CEDAR'S GOT TALENT (:

2010-04-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

Why are you going through every thing i went through?
At the same time too.
I really dislike the way you remind me so much of myself.
Trying real hard to get you out of this the easy way.

I found a certain someone's blog. Hahaha it really made my day (: Sigh, i miss ____.
Bio mock's over. Half day tmr, yaye!
Watched the Cedar's Got Talent rehearsal for a short while today.
And i came home early! Haha, idk why so many people are amused by the fact that i came home at 4 plus.

Yaye, Aom's coming backkk (:

2010-04-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

There have been so many things i want to update about.
Some time SOON, definitely.

Coming week's :/
Monday- bio mock prelim
Tuesday- Free (:
Wednesday - english oral
Thursday - Amaths mock
Friday - Cross country

Yikes, not looking forward. Unless Aom comes back! (:

Yes i know i'm really slow, but i just found out the full version of You Are My Sunshine.
Better late than never, heh.

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But not you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

Pretty sad aye.
True maybe?

What's wrong with everyone today ):

2010-04-15T01:13:00.006+08:00

Shixian actually has the ability to make my day, wow.
I'm dreading tmr.
Had a random chat with blockhead on tuesday.
And i realised i miss some sec 2 classmates quite badly.
Esp my table partners and tammiequah!

I'm starting to feel the emptiness.

But nope, i choose to look at the bright side of it.

Dont try to build relationships for selfish resons,

they will never last.

But wherever true love is present,

the bond will last forever.

2010-04-05T00:07:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY NAGGY AUNTIE! ;D

- says :

cause my fats too thick and then my wiseness and maturity stuck inside me cannot come out ):

My dear, you need bio tuition! HAHA.

I wanted to dedicate a post to you but i was thinking of writing to you instead.

And btw, there's jogging tmr! Awesomeee (:

You v uncool lahzzxz.

2010-04-04T11:32:00.002+08:00

Disgusted.
Im gonna take some time to get over this.

I just thank god for my family.

2010-04-03T23:46:00.001+08:00

You're moving on.
I've learnt my lesson.
It hurts, but i'll take a step back.

2010-04-03T00:37:00.004+08:00

Ask yourself. Have you EVER been there for me when i needed someone?
Even if you did know that i wasnt feeling good, all you could say was, 'i'm sad too'.
Well done girl, seriously.
But no, i never think about that whenever i know you need help.
I'll always try my best to come with solutions for you regardless of how silly your problems were.
You agree with me, and you know that.
So why.

hey youuuu please dont ask me what this is about! but i assure you ( HAHA i got reminded of smth ), it isnt about you(:
and yknow what, i miss us.

2010-04-02T14:50:00.002+08:00

You've got my attention again. Secret addiction.
Gosh you're so cute.
:/

Congratulations skinny!:D

2010-03-29T02:26:00.001+08:00

why the hell am i reading your archives.
sheesh.

2010-03-29T00:32:00.001+08:00

Grahhh i miss you.

2010-03-28T22:05:00.005+08:00

Facade my dears, facade.
Stop your selfish actions.
Appearing to be the bad ones again.
It's okay, it's okay.

T2W1 is over. Why does time seem to be flying so fast?! Prelims 1 are in 6 weeks and i am no where near being prepared. Really scared for humans, esp geog. Mrs Koh is awesome. It's amazing how she makes us feel so motivated to perform without scolding or anything even though our ta results are like crap.

Once again, alot happened the past week. Oh i've got new tablepartners! Brenda and SarahTan(: It's rather weird to be Sarah's tp. Haha. Anyw, we have a very impt common interest; food (; How awesome is that.

Yest was sooo productive! Went to school in the morning, met my sister for subway lunch yaye then studied with her at nus till 8. I should go there more often. Travelling there from school dosent take too long too anyw.

CONGRATULATIONS CEDAR TL DEBATERS (:
You guys were really awesome!
Jiayou for finals!

Sitting there watching the excitement, fear and tension,
i realised i kinda miss dance competitions :/ ohwell.

Nope i dont want it to happen to us.
It's us i am referring to.
Please.

2010-03-21T09:34:00.004+08:00

March holidays are ending ): And i dont feel the least bit accomplished. Camp should have just been on sat and sun. Sigh.

March Leadership Camp 2010.
Overall, it seemed to be a battle of mixed feelings. I've ranted enough about camp somewhere else.
Rosalind's comment about DM is really hilarious. Everyone i pulled out during nightwalk werent scared ): So i ended up listening to a VERY INTERESTING story. Haha. Idk why, but my legs were reallyyy tired after camp to the extent that we all agreed to cab to subway.
I still miss MLC'09. Haha idk why though.

Went to my favourite house in tpy on friday! Something really miserable happened. But i laughed it off, so (: Heard about something shocking too. Just hope it really isnt true :/ Ohwell we will wait and see. I'll pray that _____ makes a difference, otherwise, too bad and goodluck to you.

CONGRATULATIONS CEDAR NCC AND NPCC! (:
NP, yall have been training really hard too and it's the first time that yall got through this far right? Be proud of that and cheer up.
P, i really hope you're fine.

Performance at ncc finals yest. Our journey there was quite :/ We were drenched even before we reached and what's worst, we were in our rc uniform. Rosalind was being damn naggy on the way there. We did unglam stuff togther, haha. But it was fun right! Bet everyone agrees with me. Marching in the rain was just awesomeeee. 'I banged hard but i ended up splashing myself' HAHAHA zomg.
Last trng together with squad 31 on friday was memorable, definitely(:
I'll miss.

I'm going to file my stuff and i'll be off to ppmacs.
Antisocial farah suggested that we shd study at the beach -_-
Oh that reminds me, i found out two of farah's dirty little secrets yest. tskkk.
I'm never eating out with you again! haha.

Awww aom! Haha. Your post was so sweet, like me. Haha. It really made my day, even though it started off bad (: Really hope we will meet SOON. haha.

2010-03-14T22:56:00.003+08:00

Why have you changed so much?
Idk why, but reading your posts really hurts alot.
Hurts to see what you have become.
Why, idk.

I'd better start packing SOON!
haha, disciple you too.
My sister suggested that i should pack after camp ends. Wth, tsk.
Aom's not comingg. Hur.
Have fun overseas! (:

Farah's the only good one who had packed and even went to sleep. Haha.
Alright, i'd better get started so i can continue watching you're beautiful!

Byebye, JIAYOU FOR CAMPS AND CHEM SPA EVERYONE! ;D

2010-03-14T14:43:00.003+08:00

2010-03-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

Awesome.
Saw you for the second time in 6 days last week.
What coincidence(:

The play today was alrighttt, though yujie and i slept for while. Hehe. Yuan Jing was zee bestest, really. Most of them looked damn pretty and glam haha. Jingyiii! And baby, ofc. Though that blur stone look will never fade(x haha.

Camp's tmr gosh. It's our last camp.
Last fdc trng. Last fdc. Last camp. What other lasts are we awaiting?
:/

Nah, it wont be the same anym.
Whatever.

2010-03-13T00:47:00.003+08:00

Your language really says alot about you. Glad i cant be bothered to care anym. Cause hey, you'll feel the pinch in the future. Good luck to you then, seriously.
Stay calm, you.

Mtp tmr. Arts lj tmr. March camp on monday and tuesday. Chem Spa on tuesday. There are only two parts of the camp that i am looking forward to. Sheesh, it's our last camp :/ AOM cheated my feelings :( :( :( damn sad already sigh.

We seem to be becoming nothing to each other.

2010-03-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

School's per normal from tmr onwards :( :( :(
I love how lessons are currently. Though bio and math lessons have been a waste of time for the past two days.
I have so much to say, but i'm just too tired.

Oh, everyone is back! Sec 2s, sec 3s, and oals(:
I saw almost everyone i wanted to see today, but i didnt get to see baby though.
I have been eating alot this week. I better start exercising more often sheesh.

I was looking forward to saturday but not anym.
Oh, i saw AOM today! (: It was so coincidental. haha.

2010-03-08T06:22:00.002+08:00

You'll make it through, i know it(:

2010-03-07T23:13:00.005+08:00

HAHA, priyanka's pm is really hilarious.
Omg i really need a scotchtape next to me whenever i talk to naidu, srsly. Haha.
Sheesh, your blog post made me crumble :/

I'm not quite looking foward to the next three days.
I'm gonna miss baby, peyling, yoojay, wisest, and i'll miss seeing juniors arnd in school too.

yaye, but there's smth to look forward to tmr morning (:

Finally,
Happy Birthday Narmadha (:
everything happens for a reason, so cheer up alright.
Happy Birthday Levina (:
outing soon plsss thanks, haha.
<3

2010-03-07T11:30:00.002+08:00

Argh i cant go for dental because i am locked inside my house -_-

2010-03-07T10:46:00.005+08:00

Squad 31C, Unite Our Might.
South Zone Champions, Best Commander, National Champions.
Well done, us (:

6 March 2010.
One of the most important days of the year.
I cant believe it is over.
Feels like a dream now.
But somehow, i dont quite feel that victorious feeling i felt last year.

Thank you for all the jiayou and goodluck messages on friday night and saturday. And thank you to all the supporters who came down yesterday.
Thank you very much especially to Skinny and AOM, for constantly encouraging me and listening to all my rants throughout this time(: I love yall very much.

I woke up feeling really empty this morning.
No more fdc trngs to look forward to, esp after last period math lessons which totally drain me.
No more yamsengs (omg sp? haha)
No more 'Squad 31 Unite Our Might..Billibanja'
No more doing standard or fancy drills as a squad.
Yup, no more forever. There isnt a next year to await all these again.
I'll miss all the crazy grandma laughter, the silly jokes, and fun talks.

Next would be march camp, then pop.
Gah, too fast.

OAC's tmr. I'm gonna miss people ):

2010-02-25T20:26:00.002+08:00

Disappointed. Very.

Alright, say hello to the bad guys. After deep thought, i'm glad we came up with a proper solution. Priority, yes. But the truth hurts. Ohwell. We dont mind appearing to be the bad ones as long as they reap the benefits in future. It's going to be pointless to be upset over the sudden change in attitudes. I'm sorry, but you are just making things difficult for yourselves only. It's rather impossible that everyone is equally naive right. Like what someone said, i cant help but see you in a different light now.

2010-02-23T00:23:00.002+08:00

It's rather amusing that i am still awake. Slept quite late last night. There wasnt reading today so i couldnt sleep in school either ): Studied out till 9 plus after trng. It was very productive, compared to whenever i come home straight from trngs. It's a pity that libraries close so early though.

The lappy's battery is dyinggg.

I cant believe i forgot the date of ____. When i first heard it, it sounded really familiar but it didnt occur to me that it was a special occasion. It took me more than 5 hours to realise what it was, and that too, with someone's help. Heh. Amusing.

Oh yaye, (:

2010-02-22T00:36:00.003+08:00

Yest was productive, yaye. I planned to study at home but change plan so i went to library to study with farah for a little while and i went off for tuition. FARAH IS DAMN STUBBORN SERIOUSLY. Anyw, i managed to force her to eat so yaye, well done saranya. Heh. It was rather weird that i wanted tuition to be extended.

School has been tiring. It's quite a sad thing that i really look forward to weekends and any holidays. I havent felt that way in a long time. Ohwell, school just kind of sucks without having seniors anrd. Sighhhh. Yes juniors do make my day sometimes, but it's just a totally different feeling. Honestly i dont quite like the current cedar population in general, esp after what i saw on thursday. Gosh, i was beyond shocked.

I love the way skinny surprises me with her mini little surprises which never fail to give me this awesome feeling. Thankyou very much lovely! (:

I doubt it matters to you anym. Anything, i'm fine with anything. I feel really awkward about it, in case you dont realise. I guess it's that time of the year again. Face it.

Seven. Thirteen. Zomg.

2010-02-18T21:06:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry if i am being difficult.
I miss the way i could tell you everything.
And i really mean everything.

2010-02-18T20:58:00.004+08:00

Your message today caught me off guard.
I kind of dislike the way people's problems become mine whenever they share with me their problems cause i start thinking about it alot.
It sucks to know that you arent always there.

Thankyou skinny! For making my one hour math lesson bearable, honestly (:

I dont like rude j.
Seriously.

17moredays,omgosh.

2010-02-17T23:21:00.003+08:00

It's been long since i last felt this way.
I want you here by my side.
I want our 5hour long midnight phone calls.
I want our 15min meet-up sessions that made my day.
I want.
But i know it'll never happen again.
Sigh.

Thank you friends, for all the lovely vday gifts! (:

2010-02-14T21:28:00.004+08:00

I'm really glad week 6 is over. It was really hectic, with a sudden english and geog ta, ss ta, amath ta, another english ta and chem spa. And worst of all, i didnt get to attend cny celebrations thanks to stupid fever and i was sent home. I didnt get to enjoy all the snacks and seaweed and sweets after school too. Arghhh.

Shixian was damn honoured cause i called her lovely. Haha. Dont forget my vday gift kay. I was supposed to go cny shopping with her on thurs but i couldnt ): Anyw, HAPPY CNY AND VDAY FRIENDS (:

Anyway, found this somewhere and i thought it directly applies to some of my friends.

The undecided person remains in doubt, in anxiety, in anguish.
Indecision accumulates problems, worries and aggressions.
Human history is made of decisions.
To decide is precisely to know to renounce, to know to lose advantages and values to win others.

The refusal of acceptance and the absence of self-esteem make us alienate ourselves.
Being at one with ourselves is the core of a healthy life.
They who do not accept this become envious,jealous, imitators , competitive, destructive.
Be accepted, accept that you are accepted, accept the criticisms.

Negative people do not find solutions and they enlarge problems.
They prefer lamentation, gossip and lamentation.
It is better to light a match than to regret the darkness.
A bee is small, but it produces one of the sweetest thing that exists.
We are what we think.
(exactly why i took a step back for a period of time)

Maybe we are just too used to judging each other.

2010-01-31T23:54:00.002+08:00

i'm very very sorry.

and thanks alot bones, you stubborn thing(L)

2010-01-31T00:00:00.002+08:00

You made my day, really wonderful.
Wonder what it will be like in time to come.

Btw, Rosalind's pm is damn scandalous.

2010-01-27T22:54:00.002+08:00

MAYBE i dont miss you.
but i miss the lovely, awesome and best times i had with you.

CONGRATULATIONS AOM! (:

Thankyou very much for the earpiece optimist! I'm damn happy.
And thankyou very much for yours too, B. It kept me company all the way home yest.
I'm really sorry for injuring your knee even more :/ I'll be less violent in future!

School's been fine. Except for certain lessons that just seem like such a drag.
Sec 1s joined us today.
There is a Rosalind, Hui Qi and Sharanya in the sec 1 squad too.
Haha, pretty cute.

I dont know why, but the kind of joy i derive whenever i see skinny is just indescripable.
It just makes me feel very comforted. Heh. thanks for the gummies btw(x

2010-01-24T08:52:00.004+08:00

Is it wrong to care about someone who at times, doesn't even realise that you exist?
It takes alot to pretend like i'm all so fine and help you out of your r problems.

It has been quite some time since i last posted. School has been fine but rather tiring. Bio and chem diagnostic are over! Zomg, feel the joy. Chem was rather good, but bio was quite demoralising. Next up is ss and spa. Tamil lessons have been quite funny. It's amusing that i'm falling in love with bio, after all the stories i heard about ___. In fact, i actually look forward to bio lessons now. Heh. Pe on friday was awesome.

OH ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO ME IN THE LAST THREE WEEKS WAS THAT I FOUND OUT I LOST WEIGHT! :D

I am really grateful to the people arnd me who have made the past three weeks bearable. Thank you very much(:

Forty one more days.

2010-01-08T23:39:00.002+08:00

Once bitten, twice shy.
But i dont know why it dosent work that way with you.
So dont come back complaining alright.

First week of school is over.
Alot has happened, pleasant and unpleasant.
At least i know i learnt alot in just 5 days.
About people, about characters, about you.

I'm sitting next to phoebe now so i HOPE some of her brain cells would diffuse(?!) into my brain. Haha.
4P gets reallyyy high during last lessons and i love that feeling.

I am glad i've moved on. After some really long time.
Cause i dont need a heartbreak. heh.
The memories are still crystal clear though.

I miss baby quite badly ): Really wanted to sit next to her.
I miss the way we kept each other awake, the talks we had about ___, the tic-tac-toe games we played in between lessons and the really slow long walks we took to the toilet. And manymany more. Sigh.

I'm really happy for you, CK(: I was smiling to myself for really looong after seeing that. Cause i know what it feels like when that happens.

I can no longer be bothered about all those crap.
I dont want to waste my time and energy on ___ anym.
It's really silly of you to even do that.
But ohwell, what can i say.
Goodluck to you, srsly.
You reap what you sow.

2010-01-04T23:13:00.003+08:00

School was alright i guess. Afew faces made up for the little shit moments today(:
I srsly need to get into the mugging mode. And hey i havent started on geog i'm as good as dead.
Tehlian's her class assistant monitress! Haha.
The talk with shixian and rachel today was really interesting and hilarious!
Badminton soon please?
This might sound funny, but i miss yujie. Haiya yoojay, as long as you understand can alrd.
Walk out of school today was really hilarious and entertaining. Once again, awesome company(:

Aom, your letter made my day <3 Thank you very very (v v HAHA) much :D

2010-01-03T14:57:00.003+08:00

I dont want to go to school, really.
4p's teachers are alright but i guess we just cant accept it :/
I'm only looking forward to trngs now.
And seeing a few faces(:
3M's really far away though ):

Shixian dont change! Must be honoured cause you were the only one who could control me. Haha.
I still cant believe school starts tmr gosh.
School term hasnt started and shixian has started planning for prom. How cool is that. HAHA.

[Someone] says:
wth. im like in between
not guy not girl

Haha you're great man!

2009-12-30T17:52:00.003+08:00

On the 27th, i wanted to post smth about shixian cause i thought she was only returning on the 28th, but luckily i didnt cause she was back on 27th itself. Anyw, i wanted to say that ' I realised that i kinda miss shixian' HAHA that's all kay. And please dont pon homecoming tyvm(: And thanks for the chocolate too!

School is starting in about 4 days gosh. I havent finished my homework. And i dont feel like going back to school without any seniors. Sheesh. It feels really insecure. That's one reason why i cant wait for 2010 to end. But at the same time, i hope 2010 goes slowly cause i dont want to leave cedar.

Skinny's really amusing. First, she assumes that she is HOT :o Then, she thinks that i am SHY. And then, she says she loves me FRUITY much. Oh btw, you are like paper okay srsly. If you get what i mean. Haha. I was happy after seeing you yest! (:

Met naidu in school yest and that's when i realised that it has been really long since we saw each other (other than the times i had to watch you sing and dance on webcam HAHA). I forgot how to talk to you alrd, cause i need alot of energy to stop you from talking HAHA.

Christmas this year was spent watching alvin and the chipmunks 2 and walkign arnd orchard. Glad we chose the right day to go cause it wasnt too crowded(;

Off to visit HACA soon. Fats i know you miss me :D

2009-12-24T23:02:00.005+08:00

It's been quite some time since i last blogged.
Came back from trip on 19th.
Chalet from 21st to 23rd.

I dont have much to say about the trip actually. Felt weird to be staying in the same block as all the Singaporeans at first, but i got used to it after a few days. Singapore's performance was awesomeee(: Well done everyone! I'm glad that everything ended well, unlike the one in 2005. Saw a few cedarians there, but they were really quiet so i didnt get the chance to talk much to them. Prashanti came on 8th and that's when the fun started! The trip was filled with darshans, shiok food, card games, laughter and a total of two 16 hour train rides where i had to control my pee. The return journey was horrible. Overall, i think i still miss the '04 trip the most.
No regrets though(:

Next was chalet and Ma'ams Farewell.
The night before chalet was just crazyyy. Sec 3s agreed to go for night cycling at first, but backed out and then decided to go again due to peer pressure. Haha. Glad we went though(: Disciple and Yujie were scared of the dark haha! Started cycling from changi village arnd 11 plus and reached ecp arnd 2 plus. We got caught in the rain halfway and i was freezing! Ate macs for supper/ breakfast? Haha. My attempt to sleep was a total failure cause i ended sleeping for 20 mins only from 3am to 7am. Spent the rest of the time stoning, laughing at the way squadmates sleep and msging. I did smth really silly ohgod :( I am sorry i really did not mean it. I am just glad you arent angry(: haha. And sorry for waking a few of yall up!

Left ecp arnd 7am and the scenery was really pretty(: Like i told yujie, it had been really long since i was out at that time to enjoy such scenery. Heh. The ride back seemed really long. Settled some stuff after cycling then went back to the chalet to sleep! I am not in the mood to blog about farewell now so i shall save it for another day. Oh, there were so many kittens at the chalet which really freaked yujie and me out the whole time! I have to admit that they are cute, but scary. Heh. Slept rather early on second night and home sweet home on wednesday, after lunch at subway.

Overall chalet was alright. Loved the company(:
And we only had one meal on tuesday. Felt great!

I am sorry skinny, i have been neglecting you the past 4 days :( Just wanted to say, thank you very much for always asking me how i am and being there to talk to me in the middle of the night too. I'm looking forward to seeing you soon! (:

Thank you everyone, for the christmas wishes!
Especially you for the long and sweet message, aom(:

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :D
Wish i could celebrate it like i did last year :/
Sister's overseas now ):

Why are you so cute?

2009-12-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

peektures! :D

Thanks naidubaidu!

2009-12-06T22:17:00.003+08:00

Leaving in a few hours.
Alright i am making myself look forward to it now(:
Well, i know i will feel peaceful there, without much disturbances.
But i will definitely miss some people ): Hur.

Aom ends tomorrow only so i still wont be able to talk to her till 19th gosh.
Bones is back really fast. haha.

Bloob bloob dont flirt ah! If not ***(x2) will be sad aww ):

I am too lazy to type everything out so i will msg yall(:

This is for optimist alone cause i dont have your hp number, haha.
Anyw, HELLO OPTMIST. Please dont be sad anym alright. Eat properly and dont lose appetite cause of those stuff. Take care and sleep more. Must be happy ah!(:

Goobai friends. Back on 19th.

2009-12-04T23:32:00.003+08:00

I'm really sorry, but some people should really learn how to speak up for yourselves and not depend on others so much.
You might want to be a little more sincere while talking to others yknow.
Ohgod.

Saw skinny today! Haha, i was secretly damn happy(: opps. But im sorry, you arent cool. But cuteee! I am damn touched now, really. I dont want to leave so fast ): I keep laughing whenever i think of what you did behind the pillar today. You're really very cute :p haha, be honoured!

I'm leaving in 2 days ): Just realised i am going to miss many trngs :/
Aom's away at camp. Hope everything is fine there(:
Bones left this afternoon. Hope you're having fun kiddo(:

Spent quite some time slacking and singing after trng today.
I love amirah's durian biscuits!

I'M SORRY DKB ):

2009-12-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

I really dont like you.
Dont try to make me like you, cause i've tried countless times and it is just impossible.
You are so ridiculous.
Ihatethis.

I miss.

2009-12-03T23:19:00.004+08:00

I'm leaving in 3 days. There are only 2 reasons why i am looking forward to the trip.
But i really dont want to stay there for so long. Sigh, i'm going to miss afew people quite badly :/
Grahhhh.

The past few days have been alright.
Caught up with a primary school friend on friday night. I must say, she is one of the few primary school friends whom i miss. Heh.

Open house on saturday was :/
I couldnt wait for it to be over!
The dance performance was awesome.
Didnt get to watch band, tl and ml though.

Saturday night was awesome(:
Lovely company but too much of food. Haha.
I want more of such meetings!

I spent most of my afternoons in the same way; slacking and sleeping in pig's house. Haha.
Thank you for entertaining me and SCOLDING US FOR MESSING UP YOUR ROOM.

Alright i really lost the interest to blog :/

2009-11-28T00:36:00.002+08:00

I am sorry skinny :(
I feel damn guilty now.
Hope you are alright.
Sorry sorry sorry.
Why were you being such an angel, though?(:

2009-11-27T09:42:00.002+08:00

That really lovely feeling;

Thank you very much(:
You made my day yest, without you knowing it.

Skinny you are really damn cute; in the kuku way.
HAHA oops.
You're not cool la huh.
Dont be sad :D

I like the echo in the red cross room.
I still have quite alot of hmwk to do.
SIANJIPUAAAA.
Ohgod, cant believe it :(

Your behaviour is just, disgusting.

2009-11-24T20:39:00.003+08:00

You have no idea how bad i am feeling now.
You have no idea how much i want to say, 'okay i'll forget everything and we will just move on'.
I know you are crying.
It's eating me up inside to know that and not do anything about it.
But the only reason why you said it, hurts alot.
Maybe i alrd knew that you take us for granted.
But hearing it from you itself just sucks.
I still feel bad.
I'm sorry.

2009-11-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

It's just a small matter of who you treat more importantly.
And you proved it today.
Well, thank you.

Skinny just left with me some stupid hmwk to do.
HAHA, i dont understand anything btw.
And yknow what, i'm damn proud of you cause your taste is just awesomeeee(:
Like me! HAHA.
And yupyup, very cute :p heh.

After going back to the 'new school' for 3 days, i think i'd rather go back to the holding school :/
I'd rather come back to this school as a sec 1 again. hurrr.
Walked around the school quite afew times and there seem to be memories left behind everywhere.
I think i spent half the day complaining about the school, haha.
I want to go back to the holding school ):

I wish i could experience last year's christmas all over again.

Tonight was just, pretty(:

2009-11-21T23:26:00.006+08:00

I told myself i'm not going to get angry. I've wasted anough of my time and energy on ____. I wont, anymore.
You can go and lie to yourself, and to everyone around you. Cause like you once said, 'you live for yourself alone'.
I guess it's just your nature to not care for others eh? I'm accepting that.
Well, it still hurts alot. To think of what we used to be.
I'm not going to get angry because of ___ anymore.

2009-11-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

This is bad. Shitttt.
Right now, i'm damn sick of alot of things.
And i need to stop thinking about ____.

Yujie and sarahang are at coals.
Baby and peyling are at coals too.

OPTIMIST YOU BETTER START STUDYING ASAP!!!
Haha.

Deepa and i argued over totally lame stuff earlier.
Okay i cant wait to watch movie! :D haha.

2009-11-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i get the feeling that i've trusted you too much ;/
Argh.

2009-11-15T22:40:00.007+08:00

Skinny you made my day<3

HAHA, i swear you're damn cute la omg.

Yesyes, i dont want my deardear to die.

2 more days!

Hope Rosalind didnt lose her voice screaming during abseiling today :p

I'm looking forward to thursday(:

Feels weird having stuff in my mouth again. Sigh.

Baby why are you so busy ):

Peyling has secret desires HAHA!

Peyling/. says :

you sure you got no affair outside!

LATER I GO KEEL YOU

Saranya says :

HAHAHA you jealous rightt!

byebye, back to arguing with ex now.